To Her Who Suffered..

Was chatting with her on msn, knew that she is suffering a lot.
We both used to be very cheerful and it was just laughter surrounding us by then, but things really change, she was no longer that cheerful girl I've met since..
Whenever I asked about how is she and he getting on, there were no happy replies, no joy of telling me about them, just tears and doubts.

This is what I wanna tell her:
Mei,I know we both are facing almost the same situation,we both shed tears in front of each other, I know how you felt, and I know how you felt for him exactly. If you never have such feelings for him, after so many years, I know you would have left earlier rather than suffering alone here with all the things that confused you alot and wonder why is this happening although you had done best to save everything. Baby girl, things are not as easy as we know last time, feelings untold, things happen out of our control, what we can do best now is to at least learn to love ourselves again, learn to give most priority to those who deserved all your hard work and love.
Things won't change for us because we want them to.. I know we shouldn't be saying what or who is worth or not, but somehow come to a certain stage, we just could not keep on giving out and getting things throwing back at us, at the end, we are the one who suffered, then from there, we should be thinking, do we worth all this after all the love and care?
I know sometimes truth hurts alot and often do make us fall, but that is also the chance that we will stand up from where we fall, even if we have to climb from that fall, it still worth alot.. Acccepting the truth and doing things that is right for yourself is the most precious gift you can ever give to yourself and to those who love you..
After all this years crying alone in the dark, are you ready to climb up from the fall again? Just wanna let you know that, I will be there to lend you a helping hand.. Along the way upon from the fall,if you can't walk well, I am there to support your back and help you walk through this road.
Just remember this mei, we only have 1 life, and if this life ends, thats it, we can't turn back time and start all over again. That's why we should be making life happier and richer, shower this one and only life with all the best and wonderful things on earth! Don't make yourself regret more than once, cause the once is enough to ruin so many wonderful things in life..

Lots of care and love,
Sis.

Malacca

Well was off for a 3 days bussiness trip to Malacca, was fun... Sorry to some of my friends coz I was busy to update my blog, even if I had the time, it won't be a detail one, hehe...

Well I kinda enjoy working in this environment, it's a small company and people here are so nice and treated me well, I guess I was lucky to have this job. Sometimes I felt kinda depressed over what I am doing now, I felt that I can't contribute much to the company and to my supervisor, it made me having the feeling of being useless sometimes, but well I progressed alot through these few weeks, mood swinging real often, but I always managed to tune my mood back in time =D

Not sure if anyone know the feeling when you are sitting down seeing every colleagues of yours were rushing for projects and stuff, and you can't give much help, and when I told my supervisor about it, he was so nice to tell me that it's ok, trainee is to train and need time to progress, asked me not to stress myself and just try my best. Where else can I get such supervisor? Kept his words in my heart, the least I could do is to sometimes cheer him up with some stupid cold jokes and IQs, well I learned a lesson from him, never give out IQ test to engineers,try it and you will know why haha...

Not sure why I wanna type this sentence, just wanna say that sometimes you do things and make yourself regret, wish could sometimes turn back time. =D

Nice day people, special regards to Dang,Hau Shen, Mady, Joe.. Missing you guys ^^

你…

车上、那静静地一段路…
脸向窗外，泪水一直滴…
滴到了嘴角…
尝到的味道，是淡的…
感觉就好像一杯浓的黑咖啡，水一直的加，加到咖啡也不再浓了…
哭了无数次，一样…


是你…
让我知道甚么是快乐…
是你…
让我知道甚么是甜蜜…
是你…
让我知道甚么是珍惜…
是你…
让我知道甚么是温暖
是你…
让我知道甚么是希望…

可是…

你也…
让我知道甚么是伤心…
你也…
让我知道甚么是心碎…
你也…
让我知道甚么是失望…
你也…
让我知道甚么是盲目…

不知一颗心能碎几遍… 也许，我已经痛醒了…

Mamak Stalls

Went to Steven corner for a garlic cheese nun, maggi goreng and soup kambing lol, you can't imagine how full was I!

Mmm this is the 2nd time I am going there, been alil outdated, last time was like few years back hahaha.. Saw this man, well dressed up, I guess he is the legendary Steven who owns and run this mamak, but what suprised me was, he was helping to clean the dirty table, it's such a rare scene that now a days, i don't see boss who will help around the bussiness, what I see most will be just sitting at the cashier or you won't see him anywhere at all haha.. Got the urge to take his picture and try to post it in my blog,but would it be weird if I ask " Hi can I take a picture of you and post it in my blog.." So, I give up the idea and thought of googling some mamak pictures and post it here to add the ambience, but here is what I got..

Just incase the words are not clear, I would type the words for what the 3 arrows meant:
1st arrow = First, get the ink flow..
2nd arrow =Paper from discarded cigarette carton
3rd arrow =Complimentary curry stain

Thank god Steven Corner don't use paper to calculate =D
Cheers people!

Last!!

Yay I just finished my 1st paper of the semester yuhooo! Another coming up by tomorrow aiks, gonna get myself studying already lol ^^ .. Ok I guess I hve done my best on the paper, and no regrets at all, at least I din't spend much time on memorizing lol, unlike someone, doing the memorizing thing until 5am in the morning, omg you must be crazy man!! But hey, I heard that you did well in Part A, so it's worth all your effort afterall Kingster ^^!

Ok while blogging, I saw something actually run by my door room, although it's just a blink of an eye, but damn I saw what was that!! Ben, my rebellious puppy, was having my socks in his mouth!!! How the hell did that lil brat ever reach to my socks in the red pail eh??!!! Caught him red handed with the evidence (the socks) and gave him some spanking, but he was showimg me the look like " Hey you know you can't hurt me me that newspaper? Its tickling me instead! Nanananana~" , from the look, I remembered reading a story book "Gingerbread Boy" with his usual captions " U cannot catch me, coz im the gingerbread boy.." , so ok instead of gingerbread boy, the phrase would be "you cannot catch me,coz im the gingerbutt dog!" Grrr!!!

Alright talking bout this lil rebellious teenager dog, he cause alot of trouble by destroying my dad's favourite car magazines, treating everywhere as his toilet, hiding our slippers and most evil of all! He even tried riding and treating my old pet bunny which is curerntly retired now as his (Ben)all time favourite teddy bunny! He tried riding on that poor old hack.. Bitting of his long ears which that Ben thinks bunny will look better with shorter ears----> Dwarf bunny..

But there is something cute about this lil rascal is, whenever you reached the doorstep, you will know there is something behind the door, waiting to greet you.. This eventually lightened up your saddy mood with his wagging tail and licking on your legs, although I can't really see the lenght of his tiny tail lol! Adorable yes..

After Ben became part of the family, visitors increased and increasing! Friends (Joanna,Endang, Jun and others) love dropping by to look at this lil brat, and yea I would like to tell you gals that, you can always come visit Ben and yea as well, you will be visiting me too while visiting him!!?? Ok I have to accept the fact that, I'm not the priority while this lil brat got all the attention! ^^

Haha so here I would stop, gotta take a bath,have my nice lunch which will lead to a nap, after that, battle begins! Good luck to all who is gonna sit for the paper tomorrow!

My 1st blog here

Mmmm I decided to create a blog space for myself, got some inspiration from someone(HS), who just claimed that I did not browse through his new blog here where he has posted 4 to 6 blogs? So here I begin,a new blog despite from the friendster blog haha..

Ok, so it's few hours to bed, and I'm still struggling for my final exam,Organizational Behaviour would be the subject.

Sitting infront of the computer, I can somehow imagine what will I do for my paper, noticed that since I have enter university life, it's no more memorizing theories and calculas, but I learned something new -------> CRAPPING. Why why why, of all the good things I can learn, I actually kind of mastered the crapping skill, but it really helped me pass some of the subjects sometimes, so its not all wrong at all.

Watched the movie "CLICK" not long ago, at home of course, was a really nice one,meaningful and touching. If I ever have the remote on my palm now, know what will I do? I 'll skipped all this finals and all those stuff where I'll be nervous about it, just a blinked of an eye, woo there it goes! I passed the day without sweaty palms haha, but hey.. IT NV GONNA HAPPEN! Life is fun and meaningful when you get through things you like and also things that you don't wish to go through, it's part of life, part of learning, and it's a balance. ^^

Gonna start industrial training next Wednesday, well, I wil try to enjoy the working life for this 2 months, just make sure I won't skip Christmas and New Year Eve!! It's just 14 weeks, but come to days, it's 70 days.. Well yea, I guess it would be fun, coz I got a nice lead consultant, a really nice one, good for me to bully hahaha *evil*, ok just hope he won't be reading my blog lol..

guess I gotta stop blogging and start studying again for my finals tomorrow, wishing myself good luck, and also to my best mates, you gals hear me??!! Lil guinea pig will nedd more luck =P..