Thursday, July 24, 2008

For you and also for all of us

I remembered on our way back from the funeral that afternoon, along the way, was thinking back many things and words you have did and said, this song was aired in the middle of my thoughts, it speaks my mind, we've move on, we will grow old, we will eventually meet again, just the matter of time, one thing will never fade, is the love from us all ;)



Mariah Carey *Bye*
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face


I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye


Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever


Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Good Bye 20.7.2008

19.7.2008
Messages and miss calls, was taken back by the sms, wish it was a silly prank joke, but it wasn't...

Been sobbing for sometime, on and off, but it was good enough to knock me off for some rest...

20.7.2008
Woke up at 7am, all prepared and went for it... Whole heartily just wanted to see him and pay the very last respect,told myself over and over again, I must control and not to cry...

Finally we met, after the hectic semester last year and still remembering that we were having so much fun during my birthday, you were different today,you wasn't showing me your cheeky smile and innocent look when I always like asking you questions that I knew you can't answer, you haven't even told me who she is... U did not respond to us, you did not gave us a big welcome, u were just laying there, emotionless, hardened and not a single word spoken. Everyone was circled around you, few of us were sobbing, we just couldn't take it as a fact yet, you were gone forever... How I wish, you will just get up and laugh at our wet faces, and was just to test out your acting skill, you big director...

Eventually, you never wake up... But we all knew you were there with us...
I'm typing this blog, with my wet face, it wasn't dry since I receive the news, it's just too sudden, we needed time to get over it... We will try to let go because we love you, and you have to let go and continue your life...
The saddest fact that, your friendster there won't be any updates anymore, and your msn, it will never again appear online, there won't be someone like you sharing those funny and convincing conversations anymore, u said keep in touch, I guess there is only memories to link us together.

I wish there will be internet in heaven, at least I could ask, how's life up there?
Last word, may you watch over your crazy friends up there? Lay your eyes on us ok?
Please, rest in peace...

Memorandum Of Syed 1984-2008