Picnic For Two?

Just the two of us

Sitting side by side

With the beautiful greenery

Walking down memory lane

Wondering how lucky we are

To have each other

All the time...

Too Many

Too many voices talking in her head...

Can't focus can't analyze can't think...

Too many faces to identify...

Can't identify which is real which is not...

Too many things that doesn't flow your way...

Can't control mindsets which doesn't belong to own self...

Too many thoughts that both brain and the heart doesn't sync...

Can't decide if I should follow the brain or the heart...

These are not pleasant feelings, not positive stress, and sometimes you just feel like screaming and hope everything will be fine soon...

The bottle is cracking, not long before it shatter by these...

Timing

She told herself that she will give another chance if he ask.

He told himself he will need more time to think about it.

She told herself that she will never walk back into his life.

He told himself that he will never make her sad again if given a chance.

Timing is just not with us all the time, most of the time.

Rain

I wish it is raining now,

So I can stand under the rain,

And no one will know.

Memories

When things are right in front of you,
You just tend to take it for granted,
And think that it would be okay,
Because you know for a fact that it might just be there for you,
Even the most silly thought that,
It will be there forever...

But forever...
It is just a different interpretation for each individual,
Some forever last a decade,
Some only lasted one day.

And when that day comes,
The only thing you can hold on to,
Are the things which will last you forever,
Those are what we call memories...

Fool

Breathing in that familiar scent in the air,
I wonder who have that same scent as yours,
Or it is just me missing the smell on your shirt that I am imagining it,
I am too good at it because...
It felt so real that I fooled myself by turning around to look for that person.

There was no one.

3rd May 2011

I know I shouldn't be feeling like this, I have enough reasons to tell myself not to feel like this, but then me being me, I judge myself quicker than anyone else, and I set really high expectations for myself, sigh...

I hope I will be doing better, don't wanna wake up every morning feeling this invisible force pressing against my chest making me hard to breath...

How I wish I can just have the pills from the movie 'Limitless', to activate 100% of my brain, know every damn skills on earth, so I can be my own everything, can exactly do what I have picture in mind and put it in real.

Or I don't mind being weird in having more than 1 brain, few more extra arms and legs to work things faster, be able to multi-task.

At the end of the day, there is no such genius pill, no such thing as having more than 1 brain and extra few arms and legs, because...

I am only human...

Goodnight people, you guys have a blast! =)