I'm a girl

Playing online games doesn't make you a guy, I can play Left 4 Dead in a sissy way...
Watching action movies like Transformers doesn't make you a guy, I can watch and imagine it as Barbie...
Plus loving horror movies and gruesome stories doesn't make you a guy, I can easily count a few guys on my mind who don't dare watching these... (You know who you are ahem...)

No worries DogBone, you are talking to a real girl, no I haven't been to Thailand for any surgeries don't cha worry, it's just my nature that I am into guy's kind of thing?

I am a girl, really... That hard to believe?
Trying to schedule a day sometime next week for Nightmare on Elm Street, niceeeeee...

Some People

In this world, some people are just contradicting...
Hello let me ask you, if you don't really like a person, will you talk to him/her?
For me? Nope, that's why if you realize I haven't been talking to you, or just to be more specific I don't even bother replying your Facebook message (Directing this message to Ms.Lee), you tau apa hal lah,because I don't like you and please everyone around thinks that you are just a bit*h la.

If you don't like me, don't even bother to fake it out like you care about what's happening around me. Like the saying goes, fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me, nope shaming on me part is not going to happen, and sad it is, you never change since primary school... =)
Adding in another note JUST IN CASE you are reading this - I felt lucky for him who left you, because everyone (to rephrase, not only me who gotten this thought) thinks that he deserves someone 100% better than you.

Quote from Huai Bin :
"Anyway, if you don't like reading rants, please go watch Barney the cute purple dinosaur on TV. Yeah, switch on that idiot box."

Thinking Back...

Some of the old posts really bring back memories, reading them is like walking down my own little memory lane...
I was very much in love with this someone, so much that I want to plan a future with him, so much that I think everything will be going smooth even though it wasn't...

I remembered people around us often tell us that we have the husband and wife look, people have faith in us that we both will build a future together... But well, good scenes never last long, my posts started to get sour and lost its sweetness when I think about you back then, but now, it's all gone for good.

I was worried that will I feel anything if you are seeing someone new already? I was worried I will care too much if this ever happens, maybe I prepared myself too well, or maybe I just don't feel anything anymore, in fact I felt a relief and yes I am definitely happy for you, for moving forward, because that's what life is all about, it doesn't stop there and wait for you just because you don't feel like moving forward.

I hope, we learnt plenty from each other, we will not do things that we know it will hurt our love ones, and, may you be happy with her, as long as it may, make her smile, just like how you made me smile.

Whatever it is, when I think of you, I can only remember the good ones, and I hope when there are moments you are thinking about me, you will smile too.

Thank you for everything... =)

20th April 2010

Warning : It's the ramblings again, don't bored yourself. 

Reading back some of my really old entries, I must say that I haven't been a hardworking blogger, I only blog when I got the urge, and I used to blog with whatever I felt like expressing...
Comparing to my newer entries now, it seems to be 'not me', environment do really change a person eh? Could it possibly be the age too? Yes I am mid 20s now, k thanks bai close file.

Sitting here in my balcony, pretty cooling, with quite a good night view, I am thinking how nice if time will just crawl a little slower for this moment, for me to really enjoy whatever I have now, because I noticed that since I shifted to my new place, I haven't really sat down and enjoy the  new shelter, and most important thing is, I forgot to slow down and enjoy...

Parents were complaining that they don't really see me spending time with them, I won't tell them I don't have time, and I will make time for them.

I wish I can be just like him... =) Good life eh?

心情低落

昨天没睡好
心应该是飞去澳门
好朋友的爸爸有事
我又帮不上忙， 好无奈
希望一切都会好好的。。。

Thinking...

Was stuck in a jam this morning, and saw this police truck which drive prisoners.

It was a busy morning, and when the truck passed by, was just wondering if the prisoners ever envy normal people like us, people like us who stuck in traffic jams, go to work, hang out with friends and family, and they are just behind bars.

But, we are all born normal, no one born to be prisoners, so it's actually simpler than being a prisoner, isn't it?

Mind my ramblings, just some weird thoughts I wanna let it out. =)

Sleeping Time

Just before I am totally disconnected from the internet world... (No not really, my bb is still connected)
I was browsing through some of my pictures, found some pictures when I was in Phuket.
I went there at the wrong timing, the sea was rough and it was raining almost all the days I was there, but well I still have fun, I missed the food the most...

Next holiday destination, where? Taiwan!

Off to bed, shall do some planning in  my dreams for now...

My Burst Day

No offense but I use to watch a lot of Taiwan shows, and they just can't pronounce birthday but burst day, so yea here I wanna be Taiwan kia a bit to thank everyone for celebrating my burst day with me!

Remembered when I was young, during my primary school time, whenever my birthday is near, I will go around and ask everyone ... " Ei when is your birthday ar?", then after they answer they will ask me back " When is yours?", happily I will tell them " Tomorrow yay!"

As time goes by, the lesser people I ask when is their birthday, because I don't really want them to ask me when? And the thing is that they will ask how old are u.... *Very sensitive question to ladies ok, especially those in mid 20s wtf*

Days before my birthday this year, mom and dad asked if I wanna invite some friends over so she can cook something and celebrate my day, gosh no i don't want mom, I don't want you to cook and wash everything so troublesome, just a simple makan with family is more than enough.

So we went to a simple makan place, not even a hotel, but the dinner was great, not because of the food, but because of the feeling of having both my parents and brother to be at the same table eating a simple dinner, the heart warming feeling. I never realize all this until I started working, until when I reach home mom and dad already eaten and brother will be later than me to be home.

I guessed when someone grows older, they will start to realize and treasure many many small things, which money can't buy, how many more years will you have the chance to be seated all together with your family and have a simple meal? No not often anymore, as long as the time is moving forward, everything seems to be decreasing - Friends, energy, feelings, and yes family, soon they will be gone and only memories, the only thing that will continuously increase will be our age. 

This year, besides having a simple dinner with my parents, a simple cake with a birthday song, enough to make me happy and feel lucky.

Other than that, people out there! If you are reading this, this message to you! Thank you for every single wish that I received from you guys, everyone is wonderful and I love you all...

Also thanks to some of my dear clients who wished me on the big day =)

Not forgetting the bucket of flowers with a monkey from OMD Group, also a bunch of roses from a former OMD'ian, yes you know who you are!

Mady, thanks for the Cupido you bought for me, hope it brings good love luck for me, but well of course you will be the one getting married first, that's for sure dear. =)

Thank YOU for the big huggy bear, took him in as a bolster, and don't worry the fur is not dropping and defintely he is not the cause of my flu now. Love the bear!

Suresh and Icoco, thanks for the Swan pendant, it's really pretty and I was just looking to get myself a pendant, did you both read my mind? The gift was unexpected from you both! *Big Hug*

No I won't forget to mention the gift all the way from Singapore, the Adam Lambert CD from this fella I called him small boy - Kevin Chan (Thank you hey)

Last but not least, the ultimate crazy night with the nuffies! You guys are simply the bezt colleagues and friends! Thank you for the voice losing night dearies, I lap you allllll!!!

Pretty

I think this is a pretty picture, which I accidentally found it on the internet.

It gives me a peaceful feeling...

I am a year older now, just passed my birthday 2 days ago.

Haven't update my b'day post, maybe the next post.

Once again,

Thank you for all the wishes, through phone calls, smses, facebook and twitter.

Use to dream about presents when I was young, but I guess once you grow older, even a simple wish from a friend is good enough.

Have a great weekend people.

Cheers.

Happy Cina Valentines

The last day of CNY in 2010, time flies, they really do
Anyways, Happy Chinese Valentines people :
For those who are single
Females : Throw your best oranges
Males : Collect your lucky oranges

By all means, get married and have kids wth...

As for me, I visited SPCA today, and this is my 3rd time here.
Since I have shifted and staying near SPCA, thought I could drop by when my friend came for a visit at my place today.
So we drove there and we had a good time with the animals there.

Was sad to see some of the adult dogs are being left behind, being abandoned by their owners etc etc, one thing it is, if you don't have the commitment, and thinking you just want to have fun when they are still a puppy, please pay a visit at the pet shops whenever you feel like it, instead of buying one and leave them somewhere later.

Met this lady who is a voluntary, bathing a dog, she was telling us that how all this  poor dogs ended up here, and how friendly some of them can be, while talking to her, I can feel the passion in her. How many people are willing to spend their weekends in SPCA bathing the dogs? I say I'm an animal lover, but when I met her, she really did show me how far can an animal lover do.

 

She is not dead, she is just trying to make my friend to pat her more, maybe some massage.

Last but not least, I wanted to introduce Jack, my new neighbour since I have shifted here.

 

Jack looks like a fat and clumsy dog, but you are wrong, he is one brave dog who runs after wild boars in my garden, and he can run real fast.

Fat but ran damn fast - Malaysia Policeman (I saw one fat policeman ran damn fast after a school girl who was on drug okay? Don't play play ar)

Till then, another new week starting tomorrow, and my besties is back from Macau for a week, yahooo! 

Sleeping Disorder

Not sure why but I haven't been sleeping like a baby for a long time...
I'll wake up with a mild chest and headache, the more I try to get back to sleep, the more painful it gets...

I don't remember when was the last time I slept throughout the night without waking up...

CNY is ending, and I definitely missed the holidays, especially when I was back in Gopeng, and I was at Cherating for a short while too. =)

 

I think the next time I go back to Gopeng, she will be able to walk already

 

And I definitely going to miss the beach, although the sea was rough and the resort was not recommended. 

Cheers everyone and Happy CNy since its not ending yet, hehe...

Dream Like A Tiger

What if I tell you that you might get a chance to win RM8,888 worth of dreams? Besides that you will have RM1,888 of cash prize to add more to your wish list?

What you need to do, is to RUN for your Tiger dream!

How?

If I am winning this much worth of dreams, I will have this number 1 dream to fulfill before anything else:

I will want to pamper my parents, where I hope I can give them at least a little gift to thank them for making me such a happy and healthy child.
For my parents

What more? Sponsor both of them to somewhere for a week holiday!

Besides pampering my parents, I would love to buy a Samsung LED for my new house!

Right now I have shifted to this new home, where the living hall is a bit spacious and it makes everything seems small, yes I have difficulty watching the small TV set sitting in the hall now, the gap between the sofa and the TV is just far that I have to put on my glasses and shrink my eyes to watch the programs...

Last but not least 

(No am just kidding, I don't have a 'last but not least' dream, if I were to list down all my dreams, I think I need more than RM1 mil to fulfill each and every dream, but no let's not get greedy 1st)

I will want a dog!

I want to buy a huge dog with huge paws, a teddy bear looking dog!

Be it a Chow Chow, St.Bernard, Labrador, Retriever or even a German Shepherd

i have this huge love for German Shepherd, especially when they are a puppy still, damn cute one can!

Awww look at his innocent face, that you can just cuddle him all day long...

BUT

When it's all grown up....

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Eh....

I will still love him!

So summarizing my wish list, it would be :

1. Pampering both my parents

2. Buying a Samsung LED

3. A HUGE dog

This Tiger run is sponsored by Tiger beer & Nuffnang

Start chasing your dreams before it's too late!

How is it like?

How is it like to have a boyfriend?
How is it like to hold hands and hug each other while doing simple window shopping?
How is it like when you felt like crying and there is a shoulder for you to rely on?
How is it like when you can openly talk about the sweetest things you both did with everyone?
How is it like to have him mention about you being the most precious without taking into considerations?

I think... I already forgotten how it feels like already...
Because I am... Just like this... I'll just have an imaginary him then, and hope he won't turn out to be a boogie man when I find someone real to be with...

Yes you may agree, I'm not being desperate but psychotic, this is the Jester.
Him- My imaginary boyfriend =)

The Night

This is a night...

That I want to remember...

Simply because I looked into the most beautiful night...

A sky full of stars and the moon shining brightly...

This will be best if only...

I'm laying down on the beach,

Feeling the night breeze,

Listening to the waves,

Holding hands,

Whispering that how beautiful tonight is...

Simplicity is romantic,

And I love things being simple and sweet. 

I wish to see the green light, the legendary light, with him...

No Concept

OMG I found something that I won't stop looking at it!!!!

Well let's say I am not exactly a shopaholic, no not because I don't like, it's money concern!

Most of all, I'm definitely not a shoe freak!

But but but...

There was this sinful afternoon where I was browsing some pages, I found something really irresistible!

No not the usual footwear...

 

This is just too simple!

Nope not the unique heels you ever seen on streets

This Rose thingy can't beat what I saw

Nope not even HIM can take my breath away

Because what I found is definitely handmade and unique

!NO CONCEPT!

 

  

  

  

I WANT THEM ALL! ALL! ALL!

I shall have them ALL!

Am I?

This is one of the days, I'll ask myself, if I'm improving, staying on the same spot, or moving backwards?

Miserable feelings...

March please march faster!

Coz I can't wait to watch Alice In Wonderland!

This is one of my favourite cartoons when I was young, the weird happenings, the imaginations, the colours, the different characters and the biscuits will just spin off my imagination when I watch it...

I never get bored of watching this cartoon, and whenever I eat biscuits, I wish I will grow smaller or bigger, hopping that a rabbit will jump out of no where holding a clock, telling me I am late!

Best of all, the movie coming soon, Johnny Depp is acting as the mischievous cat!

How can I miss this movie? The make up is just quirky and cool. =)

 

Cool'some!

Maybe in the new movie, they should have add in a new character ---> Jester

I bet Jester will add the spice in the movie, hohohoho!

Don't you think so? *wink wink*

Talking about spice... Yesterday I heard someone mentioned Spicy Girls instead of Spice Girls...
LOL

My New Year Resolution

The last day of 2009, time flies and I think it's quicker then a blink of an eye now...

Welcoming 2010, hope it will be a better year for you for me for everyone!

My new year resolution :

1. MUST maintain my health, as I think i was falling sick pretty easy this year, especially during the month of December.
2. MUST exercise, ok haven't been exercising for the longest time that I think it's the cause of falling sick easily.
3. Spend more time with my family (Parents been nagging and complaining)
4. Hope to visit 2 different countries, I wish to visit Taiwan though

Till then, I was thinking to change the usual Jester image, either be more feminine or stylish (Both are not really my style...)

Been trying to cut my hair like this

I think this hairstyle is pretty cool if your facial feature can carry the style, afraid if I cut my hair like this, no guys will approach me, probably think I am a lesbian since I already starting to drool for Fergie from BEP (FML)

Well how about this, one of the reason I am keeping my hair length is to see if I can do something like theirs

or

Both are more lady like and feminine, I think if I am going with this style I should look more lady like instead, and I guess it helps to tone down the boyish side of me...

But long hair is pretty heavy and a bit difficult to maintain, if you see my hair now, you probably felt like taking a pair of scissors and cut my hair like some grass...

Hmm tough tough decision to make...

Any suggestions???

Plan B : If anything goes wrong within these 2 hairstyles, I will definitely be darn fed up and probably just FMH(F**k my hair) like this

That would be the last plan I will ever want to go with...

AND IF BY ALL THE PLAN FAILS, EVEN THE AFRO HAIR....

I guess I am just fated to be like Tyra Banks

I don't want! I don't wanna be the 2nd nuffy in the office.... Opps I shall stop...

Happy New Year to all!!!!

I Need to Feel

Ok I need to feel like a bull mentally, from today onwards till the weekend!

I think the nuffies will see the muscular Jester next week after new year, the result of intensive house moving raawwwrrr!

I think I already have the bull face

Mix Feelings

Was doing some packings today...

The more I clear my room and move my stuff into the boxes,my room becomes empty...

The excitement of moving in a new house is indescribable.

At the same time,moving out from a place that I have stayed for almost half of my life,is just sad...

This little place I call home, where I can just walk around with my eyes close,been a library of memories...

Definitely, I'm missing my little hut already,just hope the next owner will take good care of it...