Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Chiang Mai

Still it's not complete but well... Here are the pictures...
Next trip I wish I can visit Taiwan, hope to make it come true by next year!!!

People actually sleep on the air plane like this,he must have been missing his bed so much :|

Ahem... Sleeping beast.... Don't wake her up or else, BITE!!!

Oh yea this is the hotel we were staying in for the past few days, we got lost for the 1st day and couldn't find the path and lift to our room... Can?!

The 1st stop --> temple visiting, we look so orang kampung :|

Another way of getting bless is to bang the head against the bell till you bleed, thank you for the demonstration.

The eyebrow dog, wonder if it uses Benefit punya brand...

Alright the next stop we came by a umbrella factory, the umbrellas are all hand made and I wanted to grab some back home but then, have you heard of the spirit of the umbrella? :D

The manyak serious punya uncle, imagine if I accidentally patah one of the kaki there, sure kenna gau gau...

The felt so impressive foreigner...

The half way hand drawing t-shirt, it's mineeeeeeeee!!

The very satisfying consumer, he even painted my name nicely on the t-shirt, hohohoho...

So erm, still there is more to upload, so many pictures lah, will continue "Orang Kampung at Chiang Mai" Season 2 soon! More to come----> To be continue----> I'll BE BACK!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Something so random

Everyone loves December, it's the most welcomed month of the year, and I too welcome and hoping it never ends...

Kissing 2008 goodbye in only few weeks more, how fast can it be? We are finally getting rid of books, exams, presentations and lectures and stepping into the working world already, and seriously, I am missing those studying days ok...

At last, I got the mood to blog again, by cleaning my dusty blog with some new post.

How come a 20+ year old women is like going through a mid life crisis? It's like everything seems to be so uncertain and lifeless? Where is all the excitement that a young chap like us shall be enjoying instead? Bleh!

The only nice hope so far would be Christmas, but then, there is no plan yet! I can't feel Christmas at the mean time, gaah!

Ah finally I got part of the Chiang Mai pictures after like dunno how many hundred years, thanks to the one who is being such a good photo keeper that he don't even share it out, crappy eh?

Only one for the moment, well at least better than none duh~

Well yes I'm peeping, you won't know if there is any nice undies down there

More to come once I got all the pictures from the keeper! ^^

Monday, November 03, 2008

Dreaming Big

How many times people have crushed your dreams without you noticing it?
How many times when you share your dreams and got unsupportive feedbacks?
And you gave up all your dreams, covered them up, or hide it behind your mind, and never to be mentioned again.
You get back to do things which is not what you dreamt of, for the sake of the salary, you force yourself to do something which you have 0% interest in it.
That’s what we named it “The cruel reality”

People often say that we are born to die, well yes it is true, everyone who is born, eventually have to die, there is no escape in this process. No one gotten the immortal medicine yet, the emperor of China was looking for it until now.
To be crueler, don’t let yourself die with your dreams, make at least one of the alive!

Dreaming is so easy, but to make dreams alive isn’t a 123 step, it depends on how much effort and how you want to execute it and let it happen. Thousands or more people made their dream came true, why not us?

People who wanted to make dreams happen are often dreamers, and they dare to dream big. There goes the first man who leaves human prints on the moon surface, Microsoft by Bill Gates. Flashing back even earlier, Thomas Edison invented a thing call light. Examples are too great to be applying on the normal people like us? C’mon, who told you Edison was a great student or even a super smart ass in school? No he wasn’t, but maybe he was special in his way- He never fails to try, and he never tries to give up.

Earlier stage, ever thought that there are things call computers and mobile phones? If you were in that era of people only using phone with lines attached, you go and tell them that, “Soon people can hold their phones in hand walking and talking, cordless…” The people might laugh at you and tell you that you are dreaming and being crazy, but now you see mobile phones everywhere, almost everyone is holding one in hand.

Nothing is impossible, dreams are often precise as things which cannot be achieve, but that’s is the wrong conception, people will only be successful when they dare to try, to risk, to fail and stand again, and try again till they achieve what the have longed for.

So from today onwards, do no stop yourself from dreaming, and do not only allowed yourself to dream without executing it, the first step is always the most difficult one, but once you made the first move, nothing can come in your way to stop you. Things aren’t difficult when you think that it is easy.

I have my dreams too, and I’ll execute it, I hope one day we will be celebrating dreams.
When the whole world falls, and if you stand strong, the world is yours ;)

Good day peeps, and if there is anything you wanna comment, feel free to leave them here.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

A Motivating One...

I got this post from a random webpage, it's a good one to read on, cheers to life!

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren

Before you argue about your dirty house; someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around .

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Where is ...

Is God with us on earth?
Or out of this pity planet?

What happens if 2012 is the end of earth day,
Will He too vanished together with us?
Or looking at it happen in the universe?

Are these placebo effect? Or is it real?

Mind me, this questions just pop up out of a sudden :)












Sunday, October 12, 2008

Dreams turning into reality?!!

I found my dream path and I wish they will give me the opportunity to make it a reality, even before I start to join in, I already know I will be so devoted in the jobs they have there.

I am sending in resume to strive for an interview,I know it isn't going to be easy, but just if I have the chance to step in, I can by far saying that, this is so far the biggest joy that it may bring into my life.

Keeping finger cross, hoping for the best!
Will review only if I am being interviewed and accepted

Wish me luck and all the best!

Simple things

Hold on to me,
and I will hold on to you
through anything and everything
life brings our way

Bring me your worries
and I'll listen
with my heart
Ease them away I try

Tell me what you need
and I'll do my best to give it to you

Love me
even when I know it isn't easy,
and I promise...
I will do the same for you.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Grumpy day~

In the office right now, well been working here for 3 days counting in today, 1st day was kinda awkward, but it’s always been like that for new comers in a new company, but yesterday and today is kinda good, enjoy doing the task given. The only thing I don’t enjoy is waking up like 6am+ in the morning, so damn sien can!! So forceful in waking up so darn early lah, dragging myself off the bed and clean up, what motivates me is that, I knew someone who is also waking up at these hour, oh well you know who you are people!

Ok I’m kinda dozing off here, the water I almost drank it all, refill the bottle like 3 to 4 times in a day, camel can?! I think they need to put one private one for me, right next to me!

I need work to do, the task comes in one by one, so when I finish it up ,I’m like, omg what can I do now, there are a lot of nice magazines here, felt like grabbing it and read but it doesn’t seem nice.

There is this creative department here, people there are friendlier I can say, so anyone of you designers or those who are wanting to work in here, can always try to apply.

Someone please try to bang me with a train can?! I’m so sleepy! I will never get used to not being sleepy by waking so darn early, even during primary and secondary, I always try to be awake, it’s so darn hard! Why lah can’t the office hours in Malaysia starts from 10pm?! Better still right? Maybe I should suggest it to…

Ah ok off I go :D

Saturday, October 04, 2008


I guess we are 2 different people struggling to patch things up,
And it is not happening
You and your thoughts
Me and my thoughts
Best we go separate ways

Monday, September 15, 2008

There goes another year

Happy belated mid-autumn festival to all =D
Well,there goes the festival, the year is getting to an end again,soon enough, we will be in Raya,following by Christmas,then welcoming 2009...
Am I being slow in not beating the clock and the days? I seems to remembered CNY was just yesterday, still a freshly painted picture in my head though,everything is like a player forwarding on itself,once you pause or stop for a while, you have a lot to catch up,casualties like me,will stay at where we pause *stunned*
Left study life for more than a month already, remembering when we were at college, we always have plenty to look forward to, like "Ei class end at 12.30pm,go makan or sing k!", but I wonder, what do we look forward when we started working? Only salary day? No more week breaks, when you need to apply for day off,the only think I can be positive about is, I hope what I am doing in my job scope is my interest, where I can fully devoted to my job...

Just another boring post here,from the boring me...
I should do spring cleaning too, shall I? Hehehe...

Friday, September 12, 2008


Hmmm... Just felt weird at the moment, plain moody, plenty of things going ahead, but none of them are happening yet, the fastest would be tomorrow, where she is coming back for few days from Macau!! Next will be the vacation and next my job, hehe...

Ah, just if there is any company which doesn't practice politics? People just can't help to be a politician eh? They just practice politics whenever they go, gosh... How I wish I will be working at least with one of you girls, the opportunity is open, if you are into advertising and things, please let me know, I can try to sort out a vacancy for you, they are needing people though... So... Just leave me a message ok?
From here, I am waiting for a mate's feedback,hope it's a good one Mady,muax!

Ah I am rotting at home, I am being such a pig, my skin is starting to get worse, I get tired easily, and at the end I ended up doing nothing, wasting time bleh! Just if I have a car, plenty I can do, Maggie congratulation you are getting your new born baby in white soon! Hehehe, I wish I am getting mine soon too, nowadays, without a transport, is just so difficult, stupid public transportation doesn't reach everywhere, argh!

I seriously need to kick myself up to do jut anything! Mooncake festival is around the corner,wishing everyone is celebrating with their family, Guinea have to attend an event at Puchong, never mind, when you reach home, I play candle with you ok? Hahahah! Raya is also around the corner, just that this Raya made me think of someone, hope he is really good now :)

Till then, chill everyone! The weather is darn hot *Annoyed*

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

It was a peaceful night



Tuesday, September 09, 2008


Ish the weather is killing, it made me sweat like hell even at nights, gosh weather are changing so rapidly, I remembered I was shivering because it was too cold, it was only 2 days ago,but it wasn't only the mother nature who is changing, the world of politics and economics are like the weather...

It's going to effect all of us, what we pray from it is that, the effect won't be that big... Gaaahhh!

This is the cause of weather changing rapidly, just when you thought it's gonna be sunny, it's snowing in the next minute... Hahahaha...

Monday, September 08, 2008


Alright, someone was complaining whenever she access to my blogspot,it's always been that old post "Girls", where she said she needed some new things to read on, my young journal superior, lol! She even started work today, I hope everything goes well with you girl, just it's a pity that I wasn't able to join in when I retreat the last minute,hah...

Ok I'm officially starting work in October at Bkt.Damansara, the company is a nice and cozy one, simple organizations with brilliant ideas from experience people, hope this will bring me my permanent job as well,sounds good? I thought so too...

Alright went to Matta fair yesterday,gosh the crowd was 'awesome', parkings are coming out of creativity, people even got their cars up the pathways,all ways of parking, just to squeeze and join in the crowd, I guess everyone needed a good holiday.

Wasn't expecting a lot from the fair, thought of just simply collecting brochures and walking around, ended up going to Chiang Mai on the 18th September,lol, wishing it will be a good trip though.

Lately,I've been doing some planning,planning for my future,have to get my spirit and feet on the go already,no more a student, but someone who is officially stepping in the working field,a friend gave me the sentence " Welcome to the reality girl..." Sounds scary?Well, I guess reality isn't always that bad, it can be pretty too, there are plenty in the reality that made our day, right? And because it is real, that's why it made our day.

Reality isn't always that bad, that's what we called it the balance?
Still appreciating small things in life, they will actually jumbled up and become a big thing,trust me on this... ;)

Beautiful weekend to everyone ok?

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Girls ^^

I don't know why, I just felt lucky to have you girlfriends with me, I felt that I'm turning into a lesbo, gosh! Ok I was seriously kidding...

Wonder why do you see so many tomboys, lesbians and gays out there now? Well I kinda figured out that:

Tomboys= I can be a better man to take care of the girls, real mans are not as good as us understanding the females?

Lesbian= We've been hurt by males a lot and now we don't need them?

Gays= For Christ sake, I don't want to be part of the male family at all, shames!

Alright I was pretty much cracking a joke and only assuming, I guess its not the truth,do not accept my silly assumptions haha...

Girls, wanted to tell that, I finally get over it, I stop being a big girl's blouse, and it was because I was lucky enough to have you girls with me, my sistas! You know you are in my girl list, I don't need to name you out, hahah!

Gonna start my internship soon, hey let's have some trips or outings before we start to work like a cow please? And yea Mady, I remembered your invitation to your BBQ! Maybe the mass comers should plan a trip to Thailand for a shopping spree? Warehouse sales from SS!!! Our parties!!! Girls night out!!!

Well, isn't life wonderful? I can tell you that, of course it is!

Oh hey, take a look a this clip, this was the former event company I was working with, see if you can spot me ok!! Hoho!!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

This is...

This is how much I lay my trust on you
I doubted everyone's word but you
I trusted no one fully but you

Until you swap all the trust away from me
That now I can't even sleep well
The moment I open my eyes
I wish it was a really bad dream
That only it felt so real that made me cry

You were really someone that I trusted so much
Whole heartily that I can swear you will never do such things to me
But God proves me wrong
I fell so hard on the ground
That the impact were like a rusted sword
Pierce through the heart that I have always save for you
That I once know that, this man is worth my trust and everything

It was nothing and I shall stand strong again
Accept the truth; Face the truth; Solve the problem

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Heart Break

I don't have to celebrate the 4th year anniversary already, so girls, I seriously need you to dig me out for drink!

How Can You Deal With Heartbreak?

Most people will tell you you'll get over it or you'll meet someone else, but when it's happening to you, it can feel like no one else in the world has ever felt the same way. If you're experiencing these feelings, there are things you can do to lessen the pain. Here are some tips that might help:

* Share your feelings. Some people find that sharing their feelings with someone they trust — someone who recognizes what they're going through — helps them feel better. That could mean talking over all the things you feel, even having a good cry on the shoulder of a comforting friend or family member. Others find they heal better if they hang out and do the things they normally enjoy, like seeing a movie or going to a concert, to take their minds off the hurt. If you feel like someone can't relate to what you're going through or is dismissive of your feelings, find someone more sympathetic to talk to. (OK, we know that sharing feelings can be tough for guys, but you don't necessarily have to tell the football team or your wrestling coach what you're going through. Talk with a friend or family member, a teacher, or counselor. It might make you more comfortable if you find a female family member or friend, like an older sister or a neighbor, to talk to.)

* Remember what's good about you. This one is really important. Sometimes people with broken hearts start to blame themselves for what's happened. They may be really down on themselves, exaggerating their faults as though they did something to deserve the unhappiness they're experiencing. If you find this happening to you, nip it in the bud! Remind yourself of your good qualities, and if you can't think of them because your broken heart is clouding your view, get your friends to remind you.

* Take good care of yourself. A broken heart can be very stressful so don't let the rest of your body get broken too. Get lots of sleep, eat healthy foods, and exercise regularly to minimize stress and depression and give your self-esteem a boost.

* Don't be afraid to cry. Going through a break-up can be really tough, and getting some of those raw emotions out can be a big help. We know this is another tough one for guys, but there's no shame in crying now and then. No one has to see you do it — you don't have to start blubbering in class or at soccer practice or anything. Just a find a place where you can be alone, like crying into your pillow at night or in the shower when you're getting ready for the day.

* Do the things you normally enjoy. Whether it's seeing a movie or going to a concert, do something fun to take your mind off the negative feelings for a while.

* Keep yourself busy. Sometimes this is difficult when you're coping with sadness and grief, but it really helps. This is a great time to redecorate your room or try a new hobby. That doesn't mean you shouldn't think about what happened — working things through in our minds is all part of the healing process — it just means you should focus on other things too.

* Give yourself time. It takes time for sadness to go away. Almost everyone thinks they won't feel normal again, but the human spirit is amazing — and the heartbreak almost always heals after a while. But how long will that take? That depends on what caused your heartbreak, how you deal with loss, and how quickly you tend to bounce back from things. Getting over a break-up can take a couple of days to many weeks — and sometimes even months.

Friday, August 08, 2008

Olympic 2008 China


OMG it's today!!!! Although I'm typing this at 1.56am, I just can't wait to watch the opening ceremony, I just know that it's going to be awesome!

Counting down to the hours, it's gonna begin soon! Wooh!!

Good luck and all the best to the Malaysian contestants!! Badminton gold medal woohooo!!!

Thursday, July 24, 2008

For you and also for all of us

I remembered on our way back from the funeral that afternoon, along the way, was thinking back many things and words you have did and said, this song was aired in the middle of my thoughts, it speaks my mind, we've move on, we will grow old, we will eventually meet again, just the matter of time, one thing will never fade, is the love from us all ;)

Mariah Carey *Bye*
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Good Bye 20.7.2008

Messages and miss calls, was taken back by the sms, wish it was a silly prank joke, but it wasn't...

Been sobbing for sometime, on and off, but it was good enough to knock me off for some rest...

Woke up at 7am, all prepared and went for it... Whole heartily just wanted to see him and pay the very last respect,told myself over and over again, I must control and not to cry...

Finally we met, after the hectic semester last year and still remembering that we were having so much fun during my birthday, you were different today,you wasn't showing me your cheeky smile and innocent look when I always like asking you questions that I knew you can't answer, you haven't even told me who she is... U did not respond to us, you did not gave us a big welcome, u were just laying there, emotionless, hardened and not a single word spoken. Everyone was circled around you, few of us were sobbing, we just couldn't take it as a fact yet, you were gone forever... How I wish, you will just get up and laugh at our wet faces, and was just to test out your acting skill, you big director...

Eventually, you never wake up... But we all knew you were there with us...
I'm typing this blog, with my wet face, it wasn't dry since I receive the news, it's just too sudden, we needed time to get over it... We will try to let go because we love you, and you have to let go and continue your life...
The saddest fact that, your friendster there won't be any updates anymore, and your msn, it will never again appear online, there won't be someone like you sharing those funny and convincing conversations anymore, u said keep in touch, I guess there is only memories to link us together.

I wish there will be internet in heaven, at least I could ask, how's life up there?
Last word, may you watch over your crazy friends up there? Lay your eyes on us ok?
Please, rest in peace...

Memorandum Of Syed 1984-2008

Monday, June 30, 2008


你啊 在我們三個里 月份歲數都是最小的
不到兩個星期 你就會拖者你那重重地行李 張開翅膀飛翔
那時的你 一定是最光榮的一刻

妹 不要退縮 要勇敢前去 去追求你的夢想
你真的要記得 這邊每一個疼你的人

Sunday, June 22, 2008

50 years from now...

I honestly admit that I am someone who loves animals, so I love animal visiting, going places like SPCA,animal safari and of course ----> The Zoo!

But well, unfortunately, weird thing is, what if you like to do something so much but
your other half doesn't even have the interest in it and despite of that, he shows the face like " Do we really have to go there off all the places? If I go, I won't be going in another 50 years..."

Hohoho what an answer, can't blame can't force, but I told him one thing that what if we visit the zoo in the next 50 years, we see this...............


Would it be surprising or already predicted? Is 50 years too short to let these happen? I guess I will say No, since the tsunami is hitting places where in history it never visited those places, earthquakes striking places unpredicted, who knows one day Malaysia will start to snow? Well it was snowing in the middle east, how the hell do we expect it to snow in middle east? But it's happening already, so? Anymore unpredictable scenes to share?

Adding on top of that! Animals are dying due to global warming, we humans adding in the extinction pressure in killing for pleasure? I received forwarded mails showing stupid monsters as in human disguised, killing baby seals for pleasure,what the fuck? Nothing else more important to do?

Off all the unpredictable scenes happening, I figured out one unpredictable issue too, will the earth and us survive through with a massive clean up like what it did to the dinosaurs? Unpredictable? It is... Possible? Don't know but it's never too late to start acting out for the sake of the earth.

Watched "The Happening", there is this phrase which kept me thinking,it says...

"When all the bees disappear from earth and they are no where to be found, human have only 4 years to live..."

Are we humans trying to put this to the test? ;) Cheers people!

Saturday, June 14, 2008


Just got a strong feeling that, I won't be going too far, at least not as far as I wanted once...
I don't quite sure about my capability and ability, I understand now why do you pressure yourself so much, is to lift yourself higher to an expected stage, how if the pressure made you go down instead of climbing up?

People often said" It's ok to fell down, as long as you will stand up from the spot once again and tell yourself never to fall again..." How easy is this phrase? No it's not...

Heard of Confucian? I'm his legend, by the nick "Confusion"... I confused myself, and I confused others, I do not have one good practical philosophy in my own life, maybe I should really start to build one up, hope it's not too late though...

Ish I'm being so emo these days which I hated myself for that,and far more, everyone is leaving for their dreams, and me? Staying back and day dreaming... What the hell? Almost 24 and I am still empty handed? How many years I can yearn for the success? What I dream is always a dream, and I know it would not be a reality, no wings to spread, and I really envy those who can catch their dream and being proud about it, what will be my achievements?

Last semester and one more internship to go, and same goes to all of you, wishing u all the best in the middle cliff here, I knew everyone of you can handle these emo thinking well, pass me some useful tips to medicate this emo feeling of mine will ya?

Thursday, May 15, 2008

China Earthquake

Don't we feel lucky, we escape from the deadly tsunami and the earthquake that strikes China? Is that not enough to tell us that we are so darn lucky? Imagine children buried under the piles of stones, those who witnessed their family members being carried out with clothes covering their bodies, what they can do is just kneel and cry? Here is a clip I found in youtube, despite the song for background,the pictures gave me a impact,which I was telling myself over and over again, I am so lucky, and also to all of you...
Pray for them, hope they will have a better tomorrow...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

My diamonds

As the saying goes, true friends are way more precious than diamonds, and of course, it is priceless!
Was browsing through old albums and friendster, took a walk down memory lane, and lately I have old buddies calling back, that's lucky I would say...
So here, just a small reminder to let me feel how lucky when I am with you guys, I am gonna list down all of you...

Century old buddies:
Carmen and Alison = My forever no bloodline sisters!
Mady and Esther = My secondary play mates and soul mates!
Han Seng = My all time hero since secondary,still my hero even until now!
Heffer Tan = Indeed a very special friend to me, an unforgettable one.
Kelvin Pang = I have to emphasize that I met not even 5 times with him, but the friendship stayed long that it never fade!
Yuet Weng = A super nice mate that I knew since I was 14, was my great guitar teacher.

Friends that felt like a century old:
Fairy Lai = Despite all the weird things, you are one mate that I will treasure...
Guinea pig = All the way from Indonesia, my forever best mate
Yok Yee = Knew her from DemoPower, she is my friend more than a colleague
Wenji = Someone that I learnt so much from, thank you for helping me always..
Galdon = You are indescribable, as the saying goes, you know I know lah~
Drew = A sweet friend that I met online, hey we shall hang out one day?
Kue = Spent only 2 years with you,but you were always there when I needed help & I am thankful.

I was not born in a wealthy family, I do not always have what I wanted, but at least, I have a bunch of friends here who supports my back when I fall, and that is you...


Sunday, May 04, 2008


Nothing much about the post, but just a warning...
I've been coughing, having bad throats that I lost my voice, fever and just whatever common sickness, u name it, I got it, it is super irritating to see people eating what you can't when you have to recover from your cough and sore throat...
God I even started been awake by my own stupid cough which I can't stop at all, can hardly sleep... It's been the weather, which is the main culprit, and me not drinking enough water, which will be the supporting culprit for all this sickness, so please all my kawan, if you do not want to go through what am I going through now, the worst is being unable to control the cough that constantly wake you up during night time, just try drowning yourself with water to avoid all these tragedy...

College is starting tomorrow, hope everyone have a good kick start for the last semester! ^_^

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Touched by an angel

Watched the movie again and again, not to feel bored about it, just simply envy the tears that she shed is because he touches her heart, trying to search through my memory box, wonder did I ever shed the tears of happiness, the answer is, for my 23 years of life, not yet... Or will it even come?

I am sentimental, I do shed tears easily for minor things I see I perceive, I shed tears for old couples holding hands, wishing that one day I can go through such great moment, but why it seems so hard to touch my heart to trigger me shed tears for happiness...

I am sure you girls who are engaged in a stable relationship had gone through such experience that you shed tears because you were touched by him, and I wonder, will I ever get my turn... If it ever happen in my life, he will be the one who will be wearing on the ring for my finger, where my surname change to his :)

Wishing all the couples and singles, happy life!

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Minor matters

Something flashed back while I was sitting at the kitchen just now, I remembered last year Chinese New Year wasn't a good one, because he spend the whole few months at home, where I have to attend a friend's wedding without him coming along, he was involved in an accident...

Let's say if we make the imagination worse, what if he suffered from a permanent damage, joined the disable society, or even worse than that, that was the last time I saw him? I actually cried when I see him being bandaged all over, that the doctor asked him to stay back and not to move around for at least half a year, I guessed comparing to my imagination, it was a minor case already, at least I still sees him now...

Slowly from this flashed back incident I was thinking, do people really need to suffer through a great lost in order to appreciate what they have now? For example, walking can be such great torture towards certain people, that they rather not use their legs to walk or even decrease it to the minimum usage of the pair of legs... How if one day, they were unable to use their legs anymore, they do not even have to decrease the usage of their legs, sitting on the wheel chair, will they missed those days where they can walk like everyone else? Will they regret that why they were not using such god gifted pair of legs to the max before it even expires? How does it feels when something so minor became such major problem?

Appreciate even the minor acts in life, not only the major ones :)
Good day people!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

something to ponder over = )

I got this from a forum, well it was so long since I last visited the forum, and came across this article which I wanted to share with all of you : )

有一隻狐狸, 在路上閒逛時, 眼前忽然出現一個很大的葡萄園,
果實纍纍, 每顆葡萄看起來都很可口, 讓牠垂涎欲滴.
葡萄園的四周圍著鐵欄桿, 狐狸想從欄桿的縫隙鑽進內,
卻因身體太胖了, 鑽不過去.
於是狐狸決定減肥, 讓自己瘦下來. 牠在園外餓了三天三夜後,
果然變苗條了, 真是皇天不負苦心人, 終於順利鑽進葡萄園內.
狐狸在園內大快朵頤. 葡萄真是又甜又香啊!!! 不知吃了多久,
但當牠想溜出園外時, 卻發現自己又因為吃得太胖而鑽不出欄桿,
於是只好又在園內餓了三天三夜, 瘦得跟原先一樣時, 才順利地
鑽出園外. 回到外面世界的狐狸, 看著園內的葡萄, 不禁感嘆:
空著肚子進去, 又空著肚子出來, 真是白忙一場啊!!

我起初以為這個故事告訴我們, 人孑然一身來到這世界,
又孑然一身的離開這個世界, 到頭來還不是白忙一場!!!

呵, 這個講故事的人卻說, 看問題要看重點.
這個故事跟人生一樣, 重點是在中間的部份:
你看, 狐狸在葡萄園內吃得多麼快樂啊!!

"即使生命是一場空, 也要空得很充實﹔縱然人生是白忙一場, 也要忙得很快樂."

Monday, March 17, 2008

Once in a lifetime?

Things that you can't reach, things that you know you will never reach, and things that you are so sure that in your life you will never gonna touch it, is always that beautiful, is always that precious, is always that fairytale...

Stars for me is always that beautiful, the moon for me is always that tender and the sunset for me is always that touching, those things will always remind you how if you won't see it the next day,that's why we always drives down to beautiful beaches and places, to adore this sceneries,to show that at least I have no regrets even if I do not see them again the next day, this is the so called "Once in a lifetime scenery", how about once in a lifetime companion?

People often watch movies, they watch movies to try find their stories in it, or even wanted the story to be like what they wanted in the reality world, that's why love stories often touches hearts, especially sorrow hearts, where they tend to be so widely awake in the middle of the night, being a pathetic couch potato, watching movies, thinking which part of the movies can be apply to the real world, in order to have a good excuse to cry over it, how sad...

I once had it, I once hold it, and I am pretty sure if it ever go deeper, it will make me happy, but why do I lost it, because going deeper isn't a one sided fact to be encourage, it affects a lot, there, it stopped me from expressing myself, stopped me from telling the truth, even stopped me from letting it know, how much I love and miss it, I never believe love do works in such a way, in such a time frame, but it does, what do we call it? A miracle? Aren't miracle suppose to show happy endings? Or maybe my life's miracle isn't doing it very well, it made me restrained myself more, and start to doubt myself, are these feelings real? Yes they are, they existed and waiting to be told, but I kept them behind the walls, wishing that the whispers will never reach a single soul, a forever kept beauty, if love is beautiful...

Now... After all these, I do not wish for anything, except wishing that I could smile from my heart again, wish granted? :)

Saturday, March 15, 2008

How much

How much does it take to learn?
How many relationships does it take to be the forever one
How many more steps does it take to touch the smile of happiness
How many miles more to know where you actually stand in his heart
How much I can do to make myself believe that u are the one
How many liters more I have to shed before I tell myself to stop

U asked " What did you do for this relationship?"
I said " I cannot give you materialistic items to make you happy, I can only give you love and care that will last forever, which is now fading..."

No one's fault, no one to be blame, just that its not our fate, we both just can't take it anymore...

See the smile? It's all memories now :) Gone for good

Friday, March 14, 2008

The night

Was an awesome night, stress releasing and fun, now I know my alcohol limits hahaha! There are actually more people in the group but unfortunately they weren't in the pictures, Akashah Pui Ei, Sree and Syed... Well it was a last minute party,still fun :D

Thank you the guys for taking care of the girls, shall have more right? ;)
Photo updates ^^

Besides that, thanks King for the treat at Chillies hahahaha... Was freaking full omg...

Thursday, March 13, 2008


Sitting on the beach
Watching which is the brightest star
Seeing night boats catching
Looking at the lighthouse
smelling the sea breeze
Digging little crap holes

If there is wine
When there is a shoulder to rely on
If we can go somewhere so beautiful so far away from this place
If we do not need to think so much that stressed us
If we can just do whatever we wanted

Don't you think so? Back to the reality world with pile of assignments, ah...

Thank you note

It was the sweetest b'day for me, although I wasn't celebrating on the exact day, was spending time in front of the computer instead to finish up the pile of work, ended up sleeping at 6am in the morning and class at 9.30am, oh nightmare.

But here,I am not gonna complain about the work load and stress I have been countering for this hell semester, here I wanted to thank those who gave me a sweet memory during this b'day!

First, thanks mom dad and bro for the Seiko titanium watch, and baby for the Guess watch, it was fabulous and beautiful

Following up by:
~My ji muis and heng dais 's greetings no matter through phone or msn, it was glad to know that no matter how long we lost contact, you all still remembers me!
~Thank you for the sweetheart for the own baked cake and the surprise trip to Port Dickson
~My best best ji mui Carmen for the fishy spa and the egg tarts!! It was one hell of the experience letting your feet being tickled by the fishes hahaahah!
~And the surprise presentation slide from the mass comm buddies!!!! Ahhh!!!! Thank you so much for the surprise and the song u all sang to me!
~And of course Joe, thank you for the 2 version song u sang to me through phone to wish me happy b'day!!! ahh!!!
~ thank you for those overseas greetings! Nicholas, Vincent and Soo Lid
~ and the list goes on lol

Here are some simple photo updates

The surprising last slide

The sweetest mass communication buddies, thank you for all!

The fishy spa, the fishes is so cute

My best best ji mui!! ogether at fish spa :D

Just again wanna thank you all for the loving memories, no words can actually described the exact feeling of mine , I love you all!! ^^

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Ah Moi's gathering ^^

5th day of Chinese New Year, 11th February 2008, 59 people attended the CJ7 movie date, was fun and hell ya, it was a nice movie overall haha ^^
Our dear Eva captured the smile on everyone's face and made this clip, enjoy ^^

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Election news

Guan Eng to be Penang CM - 11.59pm
It is believed that DAP has named party secretary-general Lim Guan Eng as the next chief minister of Penang. DAP won all 19 state seats it contested in Penang with PKR winning six and Pas two. There are 40 state seats in Penang.
Official: PKR’s Khalid Ibrahim takes Bandar Tun Razak - 12.04pm
PKR’s Abdul Khalid Ibrahim wins the Bandar Tun Razak parliamentary seat beating BN’s Tan Chai Ho by a majority of 2,515 votes. He has also won the state seat of Ijok, which he had lost in a bitterly fought by-election last year.
Umno Youth chief Hishammuddin wins - 11.58pm
The Umno Youth chief beats PKR’s Lee Sang by a majority of 11,570.
Confirmed: Both MCA chief and brother win - 11.58pm
MCA president Ong Ka Ting wins the Kulai parliamentary seat while his brother Ka Chuan also wins at Tanjung Malim.
Abdullah says defeat part of democracy - 11.50pm
Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi said that he accepted defeat in three states - Penang, Kedah and Kelantan - a sizable number of parliament seats. He said that was how democracy works and urged everyone to remain calm and not to celebrate in the streets.
Opposition wins 27 state seats in Penang - 11.40pm
The opposition has won 27 out of 40 state seats in Penang - DAP (19 seats), PKR (6) and PAS (2). Of the parliament seats, DAP has seven seats while PKR has three so far.
Latest official tally - 11.33pm
As at 11.20pm, BN has won 52 parliamentary seats, followed by DAP with six, PAS (2) and PKR (2)
Joseph Pairin trailing brother, DAP may take KK - 11.08pm
BN’s Parti Rakyat Sabah (PBS) president and Sabah caretaker deputy chief minister Joseph Pairin Kitingan is trailing behind his brother, state deputy PKR chief Dr Jeffrey Kitingan at the Keningau parliamentary seat.

Unconfirmed reports also say DAP has won the the Kota Kinabalu parliamentary seat through its Kota Kinabalu chief Dr Hiew King Chiew.
Anwar: BN to lose two-thirds majority - 11.02pm
PKR advisor Anwar Ibrahim said tonight that early results from the general election indicated the BN would lose its critical two-thirds majority in parliament.

"We have crossed the one-third majority. This is based on information from the candidates from the initial counting," he told AFP. "This is a major victory... and we are moving up very fast towards (winning) 40 percent (of parliament seats)," he said.
Confirmed: Opposition takes Kedah - 10.50pm
Both the PAS and PKR have won 22 out of 36 state seats in Kedah. This means that the combined opposition will form the next state government there. Apart from Kedah, the opposition has won two other states - Kelantan and Penang.
Unofficial: Pak Lah wins with reduced majority - 10.45pm
The Barisan Nasional chairperson retains his Kepala Batas by a reduced majority of about 11,000. His majority in 2004 was 18,000.
Unofficial: T Mohan defeated in Batu Caves - 10.44pm
MIC’s new face T Mohan has been defeated by Amirudin Shari from the PKR.
Unofficial: MIC’s Wanita chief Komala loses in Kapar - 10.44pm
The incumbent parliamentarian is defeated by PKR’s S Manikavasagam by a 3,000-vote majority.
Unofficial: MIC deputy president G Palanivel wins slim - 10.44pm
The Hulu Selangor incumbent has won by a mere 100-vote majority.
Wee Choo Keong takes Wangsa Maju - 10.42pm
Unofficial: Former DAP leader Wee Choo Keong, has won the Wangsa Maju parliament seat in Kuala Lumpur for PKR. He is reported to have won by 500 votes. This will mark the return of the fiery lawyer to Parliament.
BN wins big in Sarawak, only Kuching falls - 10.40pm
BN in Sarawak, with only parliamentary seats being contested, is winning big. Results over RTM as at 10.29pm confirmed that DAP only managed to defend its sole Bandar Kuching seat. BN won Serian, Selangau, Julau, Petra Jaya, Betong, Bandar Sibu, Stampin, Miri and Kota Samarahan comfortably. However, BN only managed to scrap through Sarikei by a 51-vote majority.
Unofficial: Najib wins in Pekan - 10.26pm
Deputy Prime Minister Najib Abdul Razak retained Pekan with a majority of about 26,000. He defeated PKR rookie Khairul Anwar Ahmad Zainuddin.
Tsu Koon promises smooth transition - 10.25pm
Former Penang chief minister Dr Koh Tsu Koon has promised a smooth transition of power to the combined opposition of DAP-PKR-PAS, which has taken over the state.

State DAP chief Chow Kom Yeow said this was relayed to him by Koh who is also Gerakan acting president. Speaking at a press conference at Hotel Macalister in Georgetown, Chow said Koh told him that the wishes of the people must be respected. DAP has again appealed to its supporters to remain calm.
Unofficial: Zam loses in Sungai Petani - 10.22pm
The information minister has apparently lost Kedah’s Sungai Petani parliamentary seat to PKR’s Johari Abdul by 10,000 votes.
Human rights lawyer Sivarasa wins Subang - 10.16pm
PKR's R Sivarasa wins the Subang parliamentary seat by a majority of 8,000 votes. The opposition has also picked up the three state seats under Subang - Elizabeth Wong (PKR) in Bukit Lancang, Dr Nasir Mohd Hashim (PKR) in Kota Damansara and Khairudin Othman (PAS) in Paya Jaras.
Confirmed: ISA detainee wins with big majority - 10.15pm
Hindraf leader and ISA-detainee M Manoharan, on a DAP ticket, obtained 12,699 votes to win with a 7,184-vote majority the Kota Alam Shah state seat (Selangor).
Confirmed: Tan Seng Giaw retains Kepong with higher majority - 10.10pm
The six-term DAP incumbent obtained 35, 552 votes to win with a 23,848-vote.
Unofficial: Wan Azizah retains Permatang Pauh - 10.05pm
The PKR president and incumbent has won the seat by a 4,000-vote majority.

KL's Titiwangsa falls to PAS - 10.05pm
Unofficial: PAS' Dr Lo' Lo' Ghazali has won the Titiwangsa parliament seat with a majority of 1,972.
DAP takes Klang - 10.01pm
Unofficial: DAP candidate Charles Santiago has won the Klang parliament seat with 16,975 votes against MCA's Ch'ng Toh Eng.
Unofficial: Nurul Izzah beats Shahrizat - 9.53pm
According to ground reports, PKR's Nurul Izzah Anwar, Anwar Ibrahim's daughter, has knocked out Umno minister Shahrizat Abdul Jalil at Kuala Lumpur's Lembah Pantai. Today is also International Women's Day.
IGP: Don’t spread rumours of riots - 9.53pm
Inspector-General of Police Musa Hassan tonight warned that ISA will be invoked against those found spreading rumours of riots and urged those receiving such SMSes to report them to the police. Meanwhile, the opposition has urged its supporters to remain calm.
Unconfirmed: Samy is out - 9.43pm
Unofficial: MIC president S Samy Vellu has suffered a shock defeat at the hands of PSM’s Dr D Jeyakumar for the Sungai Siput parliamentary seat which he has held for nine terms. Jeyakumar polled 16,874 votes to Samy's 14,408. Today is Samy Vellu's 72nd birthday.
Recount in Rembau - 9.41pm
A recount is underway in the Rembau parliamentary seat which saw Khairy Jamaluddin taking on PKR’s Badrul Hisham Shaharin.
Kayveas loses at Taiping - 9.40pm
Another BN big gun, PPP's M Kayveas, who is a deputy minister, has lost his Taiping parliament seat. Winner DAP's Nga Hon Ming has told his supporters to have 'zero celebration'.
PAS bags 15 seats in Kedah - 9.29pm
According to PAS organ Harakah, the opposition party has won 15 of the 36 state seats in Kedah, including seats that were considered Umno strongholds. It needs four more seats to win government.
Unofficial: Nurul creates upset in Lembah Pantai - 9.29pm
According to polling agents, Nurul Izzah looks sets to unseat Shahrizat Abdul Jalil in the Lembah Pantai seat.
PKR candidates leading in KL - 9.25pm
Unofficial result: PKR’s Zuraida Kamaruddin defeated BN’s Azman Wahid in the Ampang parliamentary constituency.

Meanwhile, Khalid Ibrahim has taken both the Bandar Tun Razak parliamentary seat where he contested against MCA’s Tan Chai Ho and the Ijok state seat against Umno’s Mohd Sayuti Said.

PKR vice-president Azmin Ali is leading Umno’s Said Anuar Syed Ahmad in the Gombak parliamentary seat, while Nurul Izzah Anwar is leading in Lembah Pantai against Umno's Shahrizat Abdul Jalil.
Unofficial: PAS concedes defeat in Terengganu - 9.20pm
According to the state’s director of election Mustafa Ali, the party has conceded defeat in Terengganu, paving the way for BN to retain the state.
Opposition supporters told to stay calm - 9.20pm
DAP MP for Bukit Mertajam Chong Eng has advised all opposition supporters to remain calm and not provoke others. She also said they should refrain from having victory parades.

“The Barisan Rakyat must learn how to handle victory or loss with maturity,” said her statement which comes as early polls result indicate a major swing towards the opposition.
Close fight in Terengganu - 9.10pm
Latest report from Terengganu is that Umno and PAS are neck in neck as counting continues in many of the state seats. PAS is said to be leading with eight state seats against Umno's five. At least 17 seats are needed to win the government as there are a total of 32 seats.
Teresa Kok wins with whopping 36,600 majority - 9.02pm
Teresa Kok has won her Seputeh parliamentary seat with an unprecedented 36,564 majority. She also won the Kinrara state seat with a massive 4,901 majority.
Confirmed: Opposition takes Penang - 8.52pm
Unofficial result: The opposition will form the next state government in Penang for second time in history. Gerakan, then an opposition party, won Penang almost 40 years ago. The DAP-PKR-PAS combination has collectively won at least 24 seats out of the 40 seats.
Unofficial: DAP retains Ipoh Barat and three state seats - 8.46pm
Incumbent M Kulasegaran obtained a majority of 1,056 while the three state seats in the parliamentary constituency - Buntong (majority 4,437), Bercham (3,395) and Kepayan (1,382) were also won by DAP.
Tengku Adnan wins Putrajaya - 8.45pm
Controversial minister Tengku Adnan Tengku Mansor retained his Putrajaya parliamentary seat, where most of the voters are civil servants. He bagged 4,038 votes against PAS Mohd Noor Mohamad's 1,304.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Dunno how to breath...

I know it's not only me who is suffering this, I know a lot of you are in the same boat with me...
This semester, I don't know why, it is even worst than working, it's almost like you can't even have few moments to catch your breath, what we do is just sitting in front of this computer and keep on doing what it comes in our hand. I don't feel human but robotic, I can't think of creative ideas, I can't have good preparation for my work, it's too overwhelming at the moment, it's like you just got off a hectic assignment and on the same day you got a new one... It just won't let you rest!
Not sure since when I am a nocturnal already, I have to stay up late for work and wake up early to rush again or even going for classes, sleeping so "early" almost every night and it had now become weeks that my bedtime had turn upside down...
I felt like jumping and screaming to release whatever stress it is, or the best option is to go for a vacation, just a day off, without needing to worry about the work in hand, and enjoy to the fullest...

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Well well well...

I'm sure most of you heard about the super star scandal,the Edison Chen's sex scandal...

Wooo really "dai hoi ngan gai", or another phrase to describe would be drop glasses,lol... What to comment? Just not his luck...
Even if you have the addictive habit in taking pictures or shooting videos while having sex, it's not a crime, but well, think of the consequences that you will cause if the photos were to leaked out, like the situation now, and personally, I don't think those are the "victim" duh, they are not forced and tied up to take those pictures, they were enjoying being capture, so who to blame? No one...

Went for dinner at 118, where there are always numbers of pirated DVDs vendors walking around asking if you would like to buy, guess what, the sex scandal DVD is out for sale, lol! Now see how much can you control the spilled milk... Now there is video in youtube showing that Edison had break his silence in giving a speech to stop all this scandal, which is not convincing at all, is like he is reading from a text, totally kayu!

There goes his future, and the "victims" future too...

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Happy Chinese New Year

Few more days to go people! Well erm, not so much into the CNY mood,everything seems to be in a rush,and the holidays are like only 2 days,crap!

But well, don't let all this minor thing spoil the mood, so here I wanna wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year!!! Hope the rats will bring good fortune and luck to everyone out there,and I bet the population of rats are gonna grow so high coz I doubted anyone will kill the rats throughout the year? Yuke, imagine rats everywhere,I don't mind if they are clean lol,hahahaha!

Friday, January 25, 2008



This is my short hair

Ok ok due to the high demand of people asking me to upload my short hair look, lol!!! I bet you all just wanna laugh at me right?!! Ahh! Ok there you go lol~

I haven't got used to it...

I am getting used to it hehehe...