Saturday, February 28, 2009

Breather


Woke up quite early on a Saturday morning, it's now not even 8am yet, how nice... :)
The morning was breezy, sitting on my desk, I can feel the breeze blowing in softly in my room, I feel fresh, for one morning...
Thinking forward, YTD Feb 2010, I won't be longer sitting in this room of mine, I would be already move in to the new place, and I'm gonna miss this place seriously, most of all, my dearies who are just blocks away to reach... If I were to live up till 100 years old, which I don't think it's possible and I don't really think I want to live that long, I actually already spent quarter of my life here in this tiny little hut, how could I not miss it...

I am taking a wild guess that, the leavers always felt much harder and emotional where the stayers don't get the impact so much, I can feel you when you said you were stoned for a while in your room when you got back, somehow deep down, you feel real sad...

But life goes on, no matter how many stay how many left, no matter you are a leaver or a stayer, life just goes on, and the important part is, we are all reachable, just if you are staying out of this globe, this planet, then that would be a totally different story.

Cheers people, have a great weekend.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Rain



Went for a nice dinner...

It was raining heavily outside, while waiting for the car, I looked up to the dark yellowish sky, looking at the drops of falling rain, hitting softly on the road...
Just a sudden urge, I felt like going under the rain, to walk slowly under rain, without concerning what will get wet, just felt like it, soaking myself with the night rain, hoping it will wash away all the complications and simplified it, all worries and doubts into the drain, how nice, and I will be light as a feather...

I will have to learn smiling to myself again...

Monday, February 23, 2009

Some random thing

My blog is collecting dust already, ah never mind, cleaning up bit now...
Stepping into the 3rd month of working, I see myself as a workaholic where I rather stay back in the office and finish up undone business...

This field is teaching me lots, more than I ever expected I could gained in only 2 months, you don't need a long time to see the true colour though, it's just right there for you, they don't hide and most of all, they don't need to.

Having complicated feelings so frequently, I don't know what am i thinking and what do I really want in my life, I might not be as old but old enough to plan a more further goal to achieve.

Seriously, I haven't been laughing whole heartily, it's like nothing there for me to have a good laugh, but not to be forgotten, L4D team is my current happy chips, hehehe... Missing you guys there...

I'm also seriously missing the studying life, and of course the girls, where we really laugh our ass out over the slightest thing, hahaha...

Update me people, I know I've been sort of missing, but I'm still here, still the same old me ;)

Cheers.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I am...

Feeling so tiny
Felt like I am smaller than an ant,
that I am easily crushed...

This is....
The End....
No more... I don't want more...

If you don't know how to love me, someone will...

Saturday, January 03, 2009

A moment of 2008

Finally we have stepped into the new year 2009, where 2008 is a historical chapter that we can only refer back through memories...

First of all, happy new year peeps, hope it's not late for a greeting :)

2008

This is a year, that I crossed the different stages in my life, from a student to working, finally I've done all the studying stuff, although I wish to continue studying but well, financial doesn't allow me to do so...

Happy and sad moments, crumble up together, to make me grow up stronger, to make me realize so much more that I once do not understand.

I can't say I am totally grown up mentally, but I know I will, from differentiating dreams and reality, which is workable and which is not. Well it is always been so painful to let go some dreams when you know you can't do it at the moment, but that's life, and that's reality stepping in.

Most of all, I realized....
in the year of 2008, I lost two of my buddies...

Dear Syed, it's new year now and it's been awhile since we last saw you, hoping you are all peaceful and, of course I hope you are still looking over your crazy friends up there...

Dear Bluey, been 7 years, you have been with us, it was another powerful stab in my heart when you left us, left us crying, even mom was crying for days... Can you imagine how much you have left behind for us? Till now, whenever I stare out the balcony, it felt so empty yet it's like you are still here, we are all missing you, and each of family have put you in our little frame in our hearts, you are not forgotten, you are one bunny that made me cried for days... Even weeks... And even now...

Well 2009 is a brand new diary, every page is blank and waiting to be fill in with memories, hope it will all be colourful, even prettier than the 2008 diary!

Great Start Peeps!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Chiang Mai

Still it's not complete but well... Here are the pictures...
Next trip I wish I can visit Taiwan, hope to make it come true by next year!!!

People actually sleep on the air plane like this,he must have been missing his bed so much :|

Ahem... Sleeping beast.... Don't wake her up or else, BITE!!!

Oh yea this is the hotel we were staying in for the past few days, we got lost for the 1st day and couldn't find the path and lift to our room... Can?!

The 1st stop --> temple visiting, we look so orang kampung :|

Another way of getting bless is to bang the head against the bell till you bleed, thank you for the demonstration.

The eyebrow dog, wonder if it uses Benefit punya brand...

Alright the next stop we came by a umbrella factory, the umbrellas are all hand made and I wanted to grab some back home but then, have you heard of the spirit of the umbrella? :D

The manyak serious punya uncle, imagine if I accidentally patah one of the kaki there, sure kenna gau gau...

The felt so impressive foreigner...

The half way hand drawing t-shirt, it's mineeeeeeeee!!

The very satisfying consumer, he even painted my name nicely on the t-shirt, hohohoho...

So erm, still there is more to upload, so many pictures lah, will continue "Orang Kampung at Chiang Mai" Season 2 soon! More to come----> To be continue----> I'll BE BACK!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Something so random

Everyone loves December, it's the most welcomed month of the year, and I too welcome and hoping it never ends...

Kissing 2008 goodbye in only few weeks more, how fast can it be? We are finally getting rid of books, exams, presentations and lectures and stepping into the working world already, and seriously, I am missing those studying days ok...

At last, I got the mood to blog again, by cleaning my dusty blog with some new post.

How come a 20+ year old women is like going through a mid life crisis? It's like everything seems to be so uncertain and lifeless? Where is all the excitement that a young chap like us shall be enjoying instead? Bleh!

The only nice hope so far would be Christmas, but then, there is no plan yet! I can't feel Christmas at the mean time, gaah!

Ah finally I got part of the Chiang Mai pictures after like dunno how many hundred years, thanks to the one who is being such a good photo keeper that he don't even share it out, crappy eh?

Only one for the moment, well at least better than none duh~


Well yes I'm peeping, you won't know if there is any nice undies down there

More to come once I got all the pictures from the keeper! ^^

Monday, November 03, 2008

Dreaming Big

How many times people have crushed your dreams without you noticing it?
How many times when you share your dreams and got unsupportive feedbacks?
And you gave up all your dreams, covered them up, or hide it behind your mind, and never to be mentioned again.
You get back to do things which is not what you dreamt of, for the sake of the salary, you force yourself to do something which you have 0% interest in it.
That’s what we named it “The cruel reality”

People often say that we are born to die, well yes it is true, everyone who is born, eventually have to die, there is no escape in this process. No one gotten the immortal medicine yet, the emperor of China was looking for it until now.
To be crueler, don’t let yourself die with your dreams, make at least one of the alive!

Dreaming is so easy, but to make dreams alive isn’t a 123 step, it depends on how much effort and how you want to execute it and let it happen. Thousands or more people made their dream came true, why not us?

People who wanted to make dreams happen are often dreamers, and they dare to dream big. There goes the first man who leaves human prints on the moon surface, Microsoft by Bill Gates. Flashing back even earlier, Thomas Edison invented a thing call light. Examples are too great to be applying on the normal people like us? C’mon, who told you Edison was a great student or even a super smart ass in school? No he wasn’t, but maybe he was special in his way- He never fails to try, and he never tries to give up.

Earlier stage, ever thought that there are things call computers and mobile phones? If you were in that era of people only using phone with lines attached, you go and tell them that, “Soon people can hold their phones in hand walking and talking, cordless…” The people might laugh at you and tell you that you are dreaming and being crazy, but now you see mobile phones everywhere, almost everyone is holding one in hand.

Nothing is impossible, dreams are often precise as things which cannot be achieve, but that’s is the wrong conception, people will only be successful when they dare to try, to risk, to fail and stand again, and try again till they achieve what the have longed for.

So from today onwards, do no stop yourself from dreaming, and do not only allowed yourself to dream without executing it, the first step is always the most difficult one, but once you made the first move, nothing can come in your way to stop you. Things aren’t difficult when you think that it is easy.

I have my dreams too, and I’ll execute it, I hope one day we will be celebrating dreams.
When the whole world falls, and if you stand strong, the world is yours ;)

Good day peeps, and if there is anything you wanna comment, feel free to leave them here.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

A Motivating One...

I got this post from a random webpage, it's a good one to read on, cheers to life!


Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat



Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion


Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren

Before you argue about your dirty house; someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your
job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around .

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Where is ...

Is God with us on earth?
Or out of this pity planet?

What happens if 2012 is the end of earth day,
Will He too vanished together with us?
Or looking at it happen in the universe?

Are these placebo effect? Or is it real?

Mind me, this questions just pop up out of a sudden :)

不要随便说分手..

相爱的时候,女人会一次次地提出:我们分手吧!

男人只是本能的愤怒,他会猜疑她是不是因为另有新欢而背叛了他,他会气恼女人的绝情而大声呵斥她,在女人真正转身地那一刻,男人除了悲愤地看着她的背影离去而没有一句挽留!

女人一路上一直期待男人会跑上来,拉着她的手,挽留她,说声:宝贝,我爱你!别走!等到泪已尽,仍然听不到任何声响,爱情就这样夭折了!

男人怎懂女人?说分手只是为了被挽留!

每一次说分手,女人都会很害怕,怕你会真的离去,每一次说分手,女人都很期待,期待你们的挽留,让她知道你在乎他,你舍不得她走,每一次说分手,女人都很无奈,你的一些微妙变化让她不再肯定你是否还那样爱她,所以她拿放弃做赌注,如果输了,只是你真的不够爱她!每一次当分手成了事实,女人会伤心欲绝,男人为什么不懂女人的心思?

女人说分手,只是真的爱你!只是太在乎你!只是你的一些微妙变化让女人恐慌!让女人心不安!只是女人想弄明白你是否还爱着她?

女人以为,爱情的迷茫不肯定会让自己有足够的勇气,做好准备等待男人最糟糕的答案,女人以为爱情就象一个开关,啪地一声打开,啪地一声关闭,女人以为及时拨掉电源就可以幸免于毁灭,女人以为分手可以解决所有的困惑、痛苦、忧郁,女人以为缓慢的生长可以愈合此处的断裂,女人以为她说分手你会挽留她!

然而这都是只女人的一相情愿,多少此时的男人是默默看着自己心爱的女人离去而没有挽留?女人的心凉了,为什么男人不懂女人的心思?

女人只有独自在黑夜中哼着悲曲,用泪水把心中的苦涩一遍遍洗刷……
你不够爱我
也许某一天
我想起你也是一件很远很远的事
那一天,在未来的未来
再远处,是衰老,更远处,是死亡!
近处是分手,其实是真的爱你,太害怕失去你!只是你永远不懂!还是不懂!
命中注定无法永远!
但是,"分手"二字也请别随便说,要知道,这二个字,也深深的伤害了男人!

所以,无论是男人或女人,都千万不要随便说分手!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Dreams turning into reality?!!

I found my dream path and I wish they will give me the opportunity to make it a reality, even before I start to join in, I already know I will be so devoted in the jobs they have there.

I am sending in resume to strive for an interview,I know it isn't going to be easy, but just if I have the chance to step in, I can by far saying that, this is so far the biggest joy that it may bring into my life.

Keeping finger cross, hoping for the best!
Will review only if I am being interviewed and accepted

Wish me luck and all the best!

Simple things

Hold on to me,
and I will hold on to you
through anything and everything
life brings our way

Bring me your worries
and I'll listen
with my heart
Ease them away I try

Tell me what you need
and I'll do my best to give it to you

Love me
even when I know it isn't easy,
and I promise...
I will do the same for you.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Grumpy day~


In the office right now, well been working here for 3 days counting in today, 1st day was kinda awkward, but it’s always been like that for new comers in a new company, but yesterday and today is kinda good, enjoy doing the task given. The only thing I don’t enjoy is waking up like 6am+ in the morning, so damn sien can!! So forceful in waking up so darn early lah, dragging myself off the bed and clean up, what motivates me is that, I knew someone who is also waking up at these hour, oh well you know who you are people!

Ok I’m kinda dozing off here, the water I almost drank it all, refill the bottle like 3 to 4 times in a day, camel can?! I think they need to put one private one for me, right next to me!

I need work to do, the task comes in one by one, so when I finish it up ,I’m like, omg what can I do now, there are a lot of nice magazines here, felt like grabbing it and read but it doesn’t seem nice.

There is this creative department here, people there are friendlier I can say, so anyone of you designers or those who are wanting to work in here, can always try to apply.

Someone please try to bang me with a train can?! I’m so sleepy! I will never get used to not being sleepy by waking so darn early, even during primary and secondary, I always try to be awake, it’s so darn hard! Why lah can’t the office hours in Malaysia starts from 10pm?! Better still right? Maybe I should suggest it to…

Ah ok off I go :D

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Different

I guess we are 2 different people struggling to patch things up,
And it is not happening
You and your thoughts
Me and my thoughts
Best we go separate ways

Monday, September 15, 2008

There goes another year

Happy belated mid-autumn festival to all =D
Well,there goes the festival, the year is getting to an end again,soon enough, we will be in Raya,following by Christmas,then welcoming 2009...
Am I being slow in not beating the clock and the days? I seems to remembered CNY was just yesterday, still a freshly painted picture in my head though,everything is like a player forwarding on itself,once you pause or stop for a while, you have a lot to catch up,casualties like me,will stay at where we pause *stunned*
Left study life for more than a month already, remembering when we were at college, we always have plenty to look forward to, like "Ei class end at 12.30pm,go makan or sing k!", but I wonder, what do we look forward when we started working? Only salary day? No more week breaks, when you need to apply for day off,the only think I can be positive about is, I hope what I am doing in my job scope is my interest, where I can fully devoted to my job...

Just another boring post here,from the boring me...
I should do spring cleaning too, shall I? Hehehe...

Friday, September 12, 2008

Blank

Hmmm... Just felt weird at the moment, plain moody, plenty of things going ahead, but none of them are happening yet, the fastest would be tomorrow, where she is coming back for few days from Macau!! Next will be the vacation and next my job, hehe...

Ah, just if there is any company which doesn't practice politics? People just can't help to be a politician eh? They just practice politics whenever they go, gosh... How I wish I will be working at least with one of you girls, the opportunity is open, if you are into advertising and things, please let me know, I can try to sort out a vacancy for you, they are needing people though... So... Just leave me a message ok?
From here, I am waiting for a mate's feedback,hope it's a good one Mady,muax!

Ah I am rotting at home, I am being such a pig, my skin is starting to get worse, I get tired easily, and at the end I ended up doing nothing, wasting time bleh! Just if I have a car, plenty I can do, Maggie congratulation you are getting your new born baby in white soon! Hehehe, I wish I am getting mine soon too, nowadays, without a transport, is just so difficult, stupid public transportation doesn't reach everywhere, argh!

I seriously need to kick myself up to do jut anything! Mooncake festival is around the corner,wishing everyone is celebrating with their family, Guinea have to attend an event at Puchong, never mind, when you reach home, I play candle with you ok? Hahahah! Raya is also around the corner, just that this Raya made me think of someone, hope he is really good now :)

Till then, chill everyone! The weather is darn hot *Annoyed*

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

It was a peaceful night



夜澜人静总会记挂某些人,很高兴我是你那个人

-K.Punk-

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Hot!

Ish the weather is killing, it made me sweat like hell even at nights, gosh weather are changing so rapidly, I remembered I was shivering because it was too cold, it was only 2 days ago,but it wasn't only the mother nature who is changing, the world of politics and economics are like the weather...

It's going to effect all of us, what we pray from it is that, the effect won't be that big... Gaaahhh!


This is the cause of weather changing rapidly, just when you thought it's gonna be sunny, it's snowing in the next minute... Hahahaha...

Monday, September 08, 2008

Update!

Alright, someone was complaining whenever she access to my blogspot,it's always been that old post "Girls", where she said she needed some new things to read on, my young journal superior, lol! She even started work today, I hope everything goes well with you girl, just it's a pity that I wasn't able to join in when I retreat the last minute,hah...

Ok I'm officially starting work in October at Bkt.Damansara, the company is a nice and cozy one, simple organizations with brilliant ideas from experience people, hope this will bring me my permanent job as well,sounds good? I thought so too...

Alright went to Matta fair yesterday,gosh the crowd was 'awesome', parkings are coming out of creativity, people even got their cars up the pathways,all ways of parking, just to squeeze and join in the crowd, I guess everyone needed a good holiday.

Wasn't expecting a lot from the fair, thought of just simply collecting brochures and walking around, ended up going to Chiang Mai on the 18th September,lol, wishing it will be a good trip though.

Lately,I've been doing some planning,planning for my future,have to get my spirit and feet on the go already,no more a student, but someone who is officially stepping in the working field,a friend gave me the sentence " Welcome to the reality girl..." Sounds scary?Well, I guess reality isn't always that bad, it can be pretty too, there are plenty in the reality that made our day, right? And because it is real, that's why it made our day.

Reality isn't always that bad, that's what we called it the balance?
Still appreciating small things in life, they will actually jumbled up and become a big thing,trust me on this... ;)


Beautiful weekend to everyone ok?