Thursday, July 24, 2008

For you and also for all of us

I remembered on our way back from the funeral that afternoon, along the way, was thinking back many things and words you have did and said, this song was aired in the middle of my thoughts, it speaks my mind, we've move on, we will grow old, we will eventually meet again, just the matter of time, one thing will never fade, is the love from us all ;)



Mariah Carey *Bye*
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face


I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye


Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever


Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Good Bye 20.7.2008

19.7.2008
Messages and miss calls, was taken back by the sms, wish it was a silly prank joke, but it wasn't...

Been sobbing for sometime, on and off, but it was good enough to knock me off for some rest...

20.7.2008
Woke up at 7am, all prepared and went for it... Whole heartily just wanted to see him and pay the very last respect,told myself over and over again, I must control and not to cry...

Finally we met, after the hectic semester last year and still remembering that we were having so much fun during my birthday, you were different today,you wasn't showing me your cheeky smile and innocent look when I always like asking you questions that I knew you can't answer, you haven't even told me who she is... U did not respond to us, you did not gave us a big welcome, u were just laying there, emotionless, hardened and not a single word spoken. Everyone was circled around you, few of us were sobbing, we just couldn't take it as a fact yet, you were gone forever... How I wish, you will just get up and laugh at our wet faces, and was just to test out your acting skill, you big director...

Eventually, you never wake up... But we all knew you were there with us...
I'm typing this blog, with my wet face, it wasn't dry since I receive the news, it's just too sudden, we needed time to get over it... We will try to let go because we love you, and you have to let go and continue your life...
The saddest fact that, your friendster there won't be any updates anymore, and your msn, it will never again appear online, there won't be someone like you sharing those funny and convincing conversations anymore, u said keep in touch, I guess there is only memories to link us together.

I wish there will be internet in heaven, at least I could ask, how's life up there?
Last word, may you watch over your crazy friends up there? Lay your eyes on us ok?
Please, rest in peace...

Memorandum Of Syed 1984-2008

Monday, June 30, 2008

君妹妹

你啊 在我們三個里 月份歲數都是最小的
可是呢
成長得最快的那個
不到兩個星期 你就會拖者你那重重地行李 張開翅膀飛翔
那時的你 一定是最光榮的一刻
而我也一定替你光榮替你開心
難舍的心情卻比開心來的多

妹 不要退縮 要勇敢前去 去追求你的夢想
你真的要記得 這邊每一個疼你的人
都會支持你

Sunday, June 22, 2008

50 years from now...

I honestly admit that I am someone who loves animals, so I love animal visiting, going places like SPCA,animal safari and of course ----> The Zoo!

But well, unfortunately, weird thing is, what if you like to do something so much but
your other half doesn't even have the interest in it and despite of that, he shows the face like " Do we really have to go there off all the places? If I go, I won't be going in another 50 years..."

Hohoho what an answer, can't blame can't force, but I told him one thing that what if we visit the zoo in the next 50 years, we see this...............




INSTEAD OF THESE!!!!!



Would it be surprising or already predicted? Is 50 years too short to let these happen? I guess I will say No, since the tsunami is hitting places where in history it never visited those places, earthquakes striking places unpredicted, who knows one day Malaysia will start to snow? Well it was snowing in the middle east, how the hell do we expect it to snow in middle east? But it's happening already, so? Anymore unpredictable scenes to share?

Adding on top of that! Animals are dying due to global warming, we humans adding in the extinction pressure in killing for pleasure? I received forwarded mails showing stupid monsters as in human disguised, killing baby seals for pleasure,what the fuck? Nothing else more important to do?

Off all the unpredictable scenes happening, I figured out one unpredictable issue too, will the earth and us survive through with a massive clean up like what it did to the dinosaurs? Unpredictable? It is... Possible? Don't know but it's never too late to start acting out for the sake of the earth.

Watched "The Happening", there is this phrase which kept me thinking,it says...

"When all the bees disappear from earth and they are no where to be found, human have only 4 years to live..."

Are we humans trying to put this to the test? ;) Cheers people!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Dreams...

Just got a strong feeling that, I won't be going too far, at least not as far as I wanted once...
I don't quite sure about my capability and ability, I understand now why do you pressure yourself so much, is to lift yourself higher to an expected stage, how if the pressure made you go down instead of climbing up?

People often said" It's ok to fell down, as long as you will stand up from the spot once again and tell yourself never to fall again..." How easy is this phrase? No it's not...

Heard of Confucian? I'm his legend, by the nick "Confusion"... I confused myself, and I confused others, I do not have one good practical philosophy in my own life, maybe I should really start to build one up, hope it's not too late though...

Ish I'm being so emo these days which I hated myself for that,and far more, everyone is leaving for their dreams, and me? Staying back and day dreaming... What the hell? Almost 24 and I am still empty handed? How many years I can yearn for the success? What I dream is always a dream, and I know it would not be a reality, no wings to spread, and I really envy those who can catch their dream and being proud about it, what will be my achievements?

Last semester and one more internship to go, and same goes to all of you, wishing u all the best in the middle cliff here, I knew everyone of you can handle these emo thinking well, pass me some useful tips to medicate this emo feeling of mine will ya?

Thursday, May 15, 2008

China Earthquake

Don't we feel lucky, we escape from the deadly tsunami and the earthquake that strikes China? Is that not enough to tell us that we are so darn lucky? Imagine children buried under the piles of stones, those who witnessed their family members being carried out with clothes covering their bodies, what they can do is just kneel and cry? Here is a clip I found in youtube, despite the song for background,the pictures gave me a impact,which I was telling myself over and over again, I am so lucky, and also to all of you...
Pray for them, hope they will have a better tomorrow...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

My diamonds

As the saying goes, true friends are way more precious than diamonds, and of course, it is priceless!
Was browsing through old albums and friendster, took a walk down memory lane, and lately I have old buddies calling back, that's lucky I would say...
So here, just a small reminder to let me feel how lucky when I am with you guys, I am gonna list down all of you...

Century old buddies:
Carmen and Alison = My forever no bloodline sisters!
Mady and Esther = My secondary play mates and soul mates!
Han Seng = My all time hero since secondary,still my hero even until now!
Heffer Tan = Indeed a very special friend to me, an unforgettable one.
Kelvin Pang = I have to emphasize that I met not even 5 times with him, but the friendship stayed long that it never fade!
Yuet Weng = A super nice mate that I knew since I was 14, was my great guitar teacher.


Friends that felt like a century old:
Fairy Lai = Despite all the weird things, you are one mate that I will treasure...
Guinea pig = All the way from Indonesia, my forever best mate
Yok Yee = Knew her from DemoPower, she is my friend more than a colleague
Wenji = Someone that I learnt so much from, thank you for helping me always..
Galdon = You are indescribable, as the saying goes, you know I know lah~
Drew = A sweet friend that I met online, hey we shall hang out one day?
Kue = Spent only 2 years with you,but you were always there when I needed help & I am thankful.

I was not born in a wealthy family, I do not always have what I wanted, but at least, I have a bunch of friends here who supports my back when I fall, and that is you...

Love,
Jestina

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Gaaahhhh!!!

Nothing much about the post, but just a warning...
I've been coughing, having bad throats that I lost my voice, fever and just whatever common sickness, u name it, I got it, it is super irritating to see people eating what you can't when you have to recover from your cough and sore throat...
God I even started been awake by my own stupid cough which I can't stop at all, can hardly sleep... It's been the weather, which is the main culprit, and me not drinking enough water, which will be the supporting culprit for all this sickness, so please all my kawan, if you do not want to go through what am I going through now, the worst is being unable to control the cough that constantly wake you up during night time, just try drowning yourself with water to avoid all these tragedy...

College is starting tomorrow, hope everyone have a good kick start for the last semester! ^_^

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Touched by an angel

Watched the movie again and again, not to feel bored about it, just simply envy the tears that she shed is because he touches her heart, trying to search through my memory box, wonder did I ever shed the tears of happiness, the answer is, for my 23 years of life, not yet... Or will it even come?

I am sentimental, I do shed tears easily for minor things I see I perceive, I shed tears for old couples holding hands, wishing that one day I can go through such great moment, but why it seems so hard to touch my heart to trigger me shed tears for happiness...

I am sure you girls who are engaged in a stable relationship had gone through such experience that you shed tears because you were touched by him, and I wonder, will I ever get my turn... If it ever happen in my life, he will be the one who will be wearing on the ring for my finger, where my surname change to his :)

Wishing all the couples and singles, happy life!

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Minor matters

Something flashed back while I was sitting at the kitchen just now, I remembered last year Chinese New Year wasn't a good one, because he spend the whole few months at home, where I have to attend a friend's wedding without him coming along, he was involved in an accident...

Let's say if we make the imagination worse, what if he suffered from a permanent damage, joined the disable society, or even worse than that, that was the last time I saw him? I actually cried when I see him being bandaged all over, that the doctor asked him to stay back and not to move around for at least half a year, I guessed comparing to my imagination, it was a minor case already, at least I still sees him now...

Slowly from this flashed back incident I was thinking, do people really need to suffer through a great lost in order to appreciate what they have now? For example, walking can be such great torture towards certain people, that they rather not use their legs to walk or even decrease it to the minimum usage of the pair of legs... How if one day, they were unable to use their legs anymore, they do not even have to decrease the usage of their legs, sitting on the wheel chair, will they missed those days where they can walk like everyone else? Will they regret that why they were not using such god gifted pair of legs to the max before it even expires? How does it feels when something so minor became such major problem?

Appreciate even the minor acts in life, not only the major ones :)
Good day people!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

something to ponder over = )

I got this from a forum, well it was so long since I last visited the forum, and came across this article which I wanted to share with all of you : )

有一隻狐狸, 在路上閒逛時, 眼前忽然出現一個很大的葡萄園,
果實纍纍, 每顆葡萄看起來都很可口, 讓牠垂涎欲滴.
葡萄園的四周圍著鐵欄桿, 狐狸想從欄桿的縫隙鑽進內,
卻因身體太胖了, 鑽不過去.
於是狐狸決定減肥, 讓自己瘦下來. 牠在園外餓了三天三夜後,
果然變苗條了, 真是皇天不負苦心人, 終於順利鑽進葡萄園內.
狐狸在園內大快朵頤. 葡萄真是又甜又香啊!!! 不知吃了多久,
牠終於心滿意足了.
但當牠想溜出園外時, 卻發現自己又因為吃得太胖而鑽不出欄桿,
於是只好又在園內餓了三天三夜, 瘦得跟原先一樣時, 才順利地
鑽出園外. 回到外面世界的狐狸, 看著園內的葡萄, 不禁感嘆:
空著肚子進去, 又空著肚子出來, 真是白忙一場啊!!


我起初以為這個故事告訴我們, 人孑然一身來到這世界,
又孑然一身的離開這個世界, 到頭來還不是白忙一場!!!

呵, 這個講故事的人卻說, 看問題要看重點.
這個故事跟人生一樣, 重點是在中間的部份:
你看, 狐狸在葡萄園內吃得多麼快樂啊!!

"即使生命是一場空, 也要空得很充實﹔縱然人生是白忙一場, 也要忙得很快樂."

Monday, March 17, 2008

Once in a lifetime?

Things that you can't reach, things that you know you will never reach, and things that you are so sure that in your life you will never gonna touch it, is always that beautiful, is always that precious, is always that fairytale...

Stars for me is always that beautiful, the moon for me is always that tender and the sunset for me is always that touching, those things will always remind you how if you won't see it the next day,that's why we always drives down to beautiful beaches and places, to adore this sceneries,to show that at least I have no regrets even if I do not see them again the next day, this is the so called "Once in a lifetime scenery", how about once in a lifetime companion?



People often watch movies, they watch movies to try find their stories in it, or even wanted the story to be like what they wanted in the reality world, that's why love stories often touches hearts, especially sorrow hearts, where they tend to be so widely awake in the middle of the night, being a pathetic couch potato, watching movies, thinking which part of the movies can be apply to the real world, in order to have a good excuse to cry over it, how sad...

I once had it, I once hold it, and I am pretty sure if it ever go deeper, it will make me happy, but why do I lost it, because going deeper isn't a one sided fact to be encourage, it affects a lot, there, it stopped me from expressing myself, stopped me from telling the truth, even stopped me from letting it know, how much I love and miss it, I never believe love do works in such a way, in such a time frame, but it does, what do we call it? A miracle? Aren't miracle suppose to show happy endings? Or maybe my life's miracle isn't doing it very well, it made me restrained myself more, and start to doubt myself, are these feelings real? Yes they are, they existed and waiting to be told, but I kept them behind the walls, wishing that the whispers will never reach a single soul, a forever kept beauty, if love is beautiful...

Now... After all these, I do not wish for anything, except wishing that I could smile from my heart again, wish granted? :)

Saturday, March 15, 2008

How much

How much does it take to learn?
How many relationships does it take to be the forever one
How many more steps does it take to touch the smile of happiness
How many miles more to know where you actually stand in his heart
How much I can do to make myself believe that u are the one
How many liters more I have to shed before I tell myself to stop

U asked " What did you do for this relationship?"
I said " I cannot give you materialistic items to make you happy, I can only give you love and care that will last forever, which is now fading..."

No one's fault, no one to be blame, just that its not our fate, we both just can't take it anymore...


See the smile? It's all memories now :) Gone for good

Friday, March 14, 2008

The night

Was an awesome night, stress releasing and fun, now I know my alcohol limits hahaha! There are actually more people in the group but unfortunately they weren't in the pictures, Akashah Pui Ei, Sree and Syed... Well it was a last minute party,still fun :D

Thank you the guys for taking care of the girls, shall have more right? ;)
Photo updates ^^











Besides that, thanks King for the treat at Chillies hahahaha... Was freaking full omg...




Thursday, March 13, 2008

Thoughts

Sitting on the beach
Watching which is the brightest star
Seeing night boats catching
Looking at the lighthouse
smelling the sea breeze
Digging little crap holes

Nice
If there is wine
Nice
When there is a shoulder to rely on
Nice
If we can go somewhere so beautiful so far away from this place
Nice
If we do not need to think so much that stressed us
Nice
If we can just do whatever we wanted

Don't you think so? Back to the reality world with pile of assignments, ah...

Thank you note

It was the sweetest b'day for me, although I wasn't celebrating on the exact day, was spending time in front of the computer instead to finish up the pile of work, ended up sleeping at 6am in the morning and class at 9.30am, oh nightmare.

But here,I am not gonna complain about the work load and stress I have been countering for this hell semester, here I wanted to thank those who gave me a sweet memory during this b'day!

First, thanks mom dad and bro for the Seiko titanium watch, and baby for the Guess watch, it was fabulous and beautiful

Following up by:
~My ji muis and heng dais 's greetings no matter through phone or msn, it was glad to know that no matter how long we lost contact, you all still remembers me!
~Thank you for the sweetheart for the own baked cake and the surprise trip to Port Dickson
~My best best ji mui Carmen for the fishy spa and the egg tarts!! It was one hell of the experience letting your feet being tickled by the fishes hahaahah!
~And the surprise presentation slide from the mass comm buddies!!!! Ahhh!!!! Thank you so much for the surprise and the song u all sang to me!
~And of course Joe, thank you for the 2 version song u sang to me through phone to wish me happy b'day!!! ahh!!!
~ thank you for those overseas greetings! Nicholas, Vincent and Soo Lid
~ and the list goes on lol

Here are some simple photo updates



The surprising last slide


The sweetest mass communication buddies, thank you for all!


The fishy spa, the fishes is so cute


My best best ji mui!! ogether at fish spa :D

Just again wanna thank you all for the loving memories, no words can actually described the exact feeling of mine , I love you all!! ^^

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Ah Moi's gathering ^^

5th day of Chinese New Year, 11th February 2008, 59 people attended the CJ7 movie date, was fun and hell ya, it was a nice movie overall haha ^^
Our dear Eva captured the smile on everyone's face and made this clip, enjoy ^^

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Election news

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Guan Eng to be Penang CM - 11.59pm
It is believed that DAP has named party secretary-general Lim Guan Eng as the next chief minister of Penang. DAP won all 19 state seats it contested in Penang with PKR winning six and Pas two. There are 40 state seats in Penang.
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Official: PKR’s Khalid Ibrahim takes Bandar Tun Razak - 12.04pm
PKR’s Abdul Khalid Ibrahim wins the Bandar Tun Razak parliamentary seat beating BN’s Tan Chai Ho by a majority of 2,515 votes. He has also won the state seat of Ijok, which he had lost in a bitterly fought by-election last year.
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Umno Youth chief Hishammuddin wins - 11.58pm
The Umno Youth chief beats PKR’s Lee Sang by a majority of 11,570.
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Confirmed: Both MCA chief and brother win - 11.58pm
MCA president Ong Ka Ting wins the Kulai parliamentary seat while his brother Ka Chuan also wins at Tanjung Malim.
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Abdullah says defeat part of democracy - 11.50pm
Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi said that he accepted defeat in three states - Penang, Kedah and Kelantan - a sizable number of parliament seats. He said that was how democracy works and urged everyone to remain calm and not to celebrate in the streets.
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Opposition wins 27 state seats in Penang - 11.40pm
The opposition has won 27 out of 40 state seats in Penang - DAP (19 seats), PKR (6) and PAS (2). Of the parliament seats, DAP has seven seats while PKR has three so far.
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Latest official tally - 11.33pm
As at 11.20pm, BN has won 52 parliamentary seats, followed by DAP with six, PAS (2) and PKR (2)
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Joseph Pairin trailing brother, DAP may take KK - 11.08pm
BN’s Parti Rakyat Sabah (PBS) president and Sabah caretaker deputy chief minister Joseph Pairin Kitingan is trailing behind his brother, state deputy PKR chief Dr Jeffrey Kitingan at the Keningau parliamentary seat.

Unconfirmed reports also say DAP has won the the Kota Kinabalu parliamentary seat through its Kota Kinabalu chief Dr Hiew King Chiew.
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Anwar: BN to lose two-thirds majority - 11.02pm
PKR advisor Anwar Ibrahim said tonight that early results from the general election indicated the BN would lose its critical two-thirds majority in parliament.

"We have crossed the one-third majority. This is based on information from the candidates from the initial counting," he told AFP. "This is a major victory... and we are moving up very fast towards (winning) 40 percent (of parliament seats)," he said.
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Confirmed: Opposition takes Kedah - 10.50pm
Both the PAS and PKR have won 22 out of 36 state seats in Kedah. This means that the combined opposition will form the next state government there. Apart from Kedah, the opposition has won two other states - Kelantan and Penang.
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Unofficial: Pak Lah wins with reduced majority - 10.45pm
The Barisan Nasional chairperson retains his Kepala Batas by a reduced majority of about 11,000. His majority in 2004 was 18,000.
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Unofficial: T Mohan defeated in Batu Caves - 10.44pm
MIC’s new face T Mohan has been defeated by Amirudin Shari from the PKR.
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Unofficial: MIC’s Wanita chief Komala loses in Kapar - 10.44pm
The incumbent parliamentarian is defeated by PKR’s S Manikavasagam by a 3,000-vote majority.
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Unofficial: MIC deputy president G Palanivel wins slim - 10.44pm
The Hulu Selangor incumbent has won by a mere 100-vote majority.
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Wee Choo Keong takes Wangsa Maju - 10.42pm
Unofficial: Former DAP leader Wee Choo Keong, has won the Wangsa Maju parliament seat in Kuala Lumpur for PKR. He is reported to have won by 500 votes. This will mark the return of the fiery lawyer to Parliament.
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BN wins big in Sarawak, only Kuching falls - 10.40pm
BN in Sarawak, with only parliamentary seats being contested, is winning big. Results over RTM as at 10.29pm confirmed that DAP only managed to defend its sole Bandar Kuching seat. BN won Serian, Selangau, Julau, Petra Jaya, Betong, Bandar Sibu, Stampin, Miri and Kota Samarahan comfortably. However, BN only managed to scrap through Sarikei by a 51-vote majority.
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Unofficial: Najib wins in Pekan - 10.26pm
Deputy Prime Minister Najib Abdul Razak retained Pekan with a majority of about 26,000. He defeated PKR rookie Khairul Anwar Ahmad Zainuddin.
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Tsu Koon promises smooth transition - 10.25pm
Former Penang chief minister Dr Koh Tsu Koon has promised a smooth transition of power to the combined opposition of DAP-PKR-PAS, which has taken over the state.

State DAP chief Chow Kom Yeow said this was relayed to him by Koh who is also Gerakan acting president. Speaking at a press conference at Hotel Macalister in Georgetown, Chow said Koh told him that the wishes of the people must be respected. DAP has again appealed to its supporters to remain calm.
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Unofficial: Zam loses in Sungai Petani - 10.22pm
The information minister has apparently lost Kedah’s Sungai Petani parliamentary seat to PKR’s Johari Abdul by 10,000 votes.
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Human rights lawyer Sivarasa wins Subang - 10.16pm
PKR's R Sivarasa wins the Subang parliamentary seat by a majority of 8,000 votes. The opposition has also picked up the three state seats under Subang - Elizabeth Wong (PKR) in Bukit Lancang, Dr Nasir Mohd Hashim (PKR) in Kota Damansara and Khairudin Othman (PAS) in Paya Jaras.
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Confirmed: ISA detainee wins with big majority - 10.15pm
Hindraf leader and ISA-detainee M Manoharan, on a DAP ticket, obtained 12,699 votes to win with a 7,184-vote majority the Kota Alam Shah state seat (Selangor).
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Confirmed: Tan Seng Giaw retains Kepong with higher majority - 10.10pm
The six-term DAP incumbent obtained 35, 552 votes to win with a 23,848-vote.
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Unofficial: Wan Azizah retains Permatang Pauh - 10.05pm
The PKR president and incumbent has won the seat by a 4,000-vote majority.

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KL's Titiwangsa falls to PAS - 10.05pm
Unofficial: PAS' Dr Lo' Lo' Ghazali has won the Titiwangsa parliament seat with a majority of 1,972.
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DAP takes Klang - 10.01pm
Unofficial: DAP candidate Charles Santiago has won the Klang parliament seat with 16,975 votes against MCA's Ch'ng Toh Eng.
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Unofficial: Nurul Izzah beats Shahrizat - 9.53pm
According to ground reports, PKR's Nurul Izzah Anwar, Anwar Ibrahim's daughter, has knocked out Umno minister Shahrizat Abdul Jalil at Kuala Lumpur's Lembah Pantai. Today is also International Women's Day.
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IGP: Don’t spread rumours of riots - 9.53pm
Inspector-General of Police Musa Hassan tonight warned that ISA will be invoked against those found spreading rumours of riots and urged those receiving such SMSes to report them to the police. Meanwhile, the opposition has urged its supporters to remain calm.
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Unconfirmed: Samy is out - 9.43pm
Unofficial: MIC president S Samy Vellu has suffered a shock defeat at the hands of PSM’s Dr D Jeyakumar for the Sungai Siput parliamentary seat which he has held for nine terms. Jeyakumar polled 16,874 votes to Samy's 14,408. Today is Samy Vellu's 72nd birthday.
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Recount in Rembau - 9.41pm
A recount is underway in the Rembau parliamentary seat which saw Khairy Jamaluddin taking on PKR’s Badrul Hisham Shaharin.
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Kayveas loses at Taiping - 9.40pm
Another BN big gun, PPP's M Kayveas, who is a deputy minister, has lost his Taiping parliament seat. Winner DAP's Nga Hon Ming has told his supporters to have 'zero celebration'.
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PAS bags 15 seats in Kedah - 9.29pm
According to PAS organ Harakah, the opposition party has won 15 of the 36 state seats in Kedah, including seats that were considered Umno strongholds. It needs four more seats to win government.
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Unofficial: Nurul creates upset in Lembah Pantai - 9.29pm
According to polling agents, Nurul Izzah looks sets to unseat Shahrizat Abdul Jalil in the Lembah Pantai seat.
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PKR candidates leading in KL - 9.25pm
Unofficial result: PKR’s Zuraida Kamaruddin defeated BN’s Azman Wahid in the Ampang parliamentary constituency.

Meanwhile, Khalid Ibrahim has taken both the Bandar Tun Razak parliamentary seat where he contested against MCA’s Tan Chai Ho and the Ijok state seat against Umno’s Mohd Sayuti Said.

PKR vice-president Azmin Ali is leading Umno’s Said Anuar Syed Ahmad in the Gombak parliamentary seat, while Nurul Izzah Anwar is leading in Lembah Pantai against Umno's Shahrizat Abdul Jalil.
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Unofficial: PAS concedes defeat in Terengganu - 9.20pm
According to the state’s director of election Mustafa Ali, the party has conceded defeat in Terengganu, paving the way for BN to retain the state.
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Opposition supporters told to stay calm - 9.20pm
DAP MP for Bukit Mertajam Chong Eng has advised all opposition supporters to remain calm and not provoke others. She also said they should refrain from having victory parades.

“The Barisan Rakyat must learn how to handle victory or loss with maturity,” said her statement which comes as early polls result indicate a major swing towards the opposition.
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Close fight in Terengganu - 9.10pm
Latest report from Terengganu is that Umno and PAS are neck in neck as counting continues in many of the state seats. PAS is said to be leading with eight state seats against Umno's five. At least 17 seats are needed to win the government as there are a total of 32 seats.
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Teresa Kok wins with whopping 36,600 majority - 9.02pm
Teresa Kok has won her Seputeh parliamentary seat with an unprecedented 36,564 majority. She also won the Kinrara state seat with a massive 4,901 majority.
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Confirmed: Opposition takes Penang - 8.52pm
Unofficial result: The opposition will form the next state government in Penang for second time in history. Gerakan, then an opposition party, won Penang almost 40 years ago. The DAP-PKR-PAS combination has collectively won at least 24 seats out of the 40 seats.
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Unofficial: DAP retains Ipoh Barat and three state seats - 8.46pm
Incumbent M Kulasegaran obtained a majority of 1,056 while the three state seats in the parliamentary constituency - Buntong (majority 4,437), Bercham (3,395) and Kepayan (1,382) were also won by DAP.
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Tengku Adnan wins Putrajaya - 8.45pm
Controversial minister Tengku Adnan Tengku Mansor retained his Putrajaya parliamentary seat, where most of the voters are civil servants. He bagged 4,038 votes against PAS Mohd Noor Mohamad's 1,304.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Dunno how to breath...


I know it's not only me who is suffering this, I know a lot of you are in the same boat with me...
This semester, I don't know why, it is even worst than working, it's almost like you can't even have few moments to catch your breath, what we do is just sitting in front of this computer and keep on doing what it comes in our hand. I don't feel human but robotic, I can't think of creative ideas, I can't have good preparation for my work, it's too overwhelming at the moment, it's like you just got off a hectic assignment and on the same day you got a new one... It just won't let you rest!
Not sure since when I am a nocturnal already, I have to stay up late for work and wake up early to rush again or even going for classes, sleeping so "early" almost every night and it had now become weeks that my bedtime had turn upside down...
I felt like jumping and screaming to release whatever stress it is, or the best option is to go for a vacation, just a day off, without needing to worry about the work in hand, and enjoy to the fullest...

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Well well well...

I'm sure most of you heard about the super star scandal,the Edison Chen's sex scandal...

Wooo really "dai hoi ngan gai", or another phrase to describe would be drop glasses,lol... What to comment? Just not his luck...
Even if you have the addictive habit in taking pictures or shooting videos while having sex, it's not a crime, but well, think of the consequences that you will cause if the photos were to leaked out, like the situation now, and personally, I don't think those are the "victim" duh, they are not forced and tied up to take those pictures, they were enjoying being capture, so who to blame? No one...

Went for dinner at 118, where there are always numbers of pirated DVDs vendors walking around asking if you would like to buy, guess what, the sex scandal DVD is out for sale, lol! Now see how much can you control the spilled milk... Now there is video in youtube showing that Edison had break his silence in giving a speech to stop all this scandal, which is not convincing at all, is like he is reading from a text, totally kayu!

There goes his future, and the "victims" future too...

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Happy Chinese New Year


Few more days to go people! Well erm, not so much into the CNY mood,everything seems to be in a rush,and the holidays are like only 2 days,crap!

But well, don't let all this minor thing spoil the mood, so here I wanna wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year!!! Hope the rats will bring good fortune and luck to everyone out there,and I bet the population of rats are gonna grow so high coz I doubted anyone will kill the rats throughout the year? Yuke, imagine rats everywhere,I don't mind if they are clean lol,hahahaha!

Friday, January 25, 2008

想問候你...

好久都沒有你的消息,希望遠方的你,好好地...
那天收拾房間,找到了一些已久的回憶,那是我們六年級你寄我的照片...
佚憾...
記得五年級別人都開始傳說我們倆,每當看到對方,都會很害羞的躲避對方,哈哈...
結果,就以通信來抱持聯絡...
經不起考驗,我們也就短了几年的聯絡...
几年過後的我們,又見回面...
佚憾...
我們也沒有發展下去,
一年后,聽說你交了女朋友,心情有點酸的同時我替你高興,
結果最終你們也都分了...
分了過後,你拉了我去談心事,驚訝的我聽到你說:"我發現我原來...一直以來,小時候到現在,已經是有九年了,我對你的感覺,依然都在..."
就這樣,我們彼此在彼此的生活里,進進出出地,我們是彼此熟悉的過客,
你說,我們會有怎樣的結局呢?
只想說,我知道我傷害了你,對不起...

This is my short hair

Ok ok due to the high demand of people asking me to upload my short hair look, lol!!! I bet you all just wanna laugh at me right?!! Ahh! Ok there you go lol~

I haven't got used to it...

I am getting used to it hehehe...

Thursday, January 24, 2008

I cut it short...

Ok I had a haircut, I actually wanting to cut my hair real short for a long long time, coz I always have the thinking that I don't really behave like a girl and keeping my hair long is just a burden for me, coz I do not do a lot of haircare stuff and I just don't have the talent in styling my hair nice...

I joined the short hair group hehehe, but I guess this haircut doesn't suit me a lot, will get used to it, and when it gets longer, I think I will cut it short again, lol! I used to hair short hair during secondary up till Form 4, hehehe...

So erm... don't laugh at me when you see me in college next week ok?

Friday, January 18, 2008

Fatal Frame

Are there any play station fans out there, if there is, im not sure if anyone ever played Fatal Frame, now there is fatal frame 3:The Torment in the market already...

As for your information, I am very well famous for being a fan of gruesome movies, which my girlfriends often blame those gruesome happenings on me, automatically, right?!

Ok so here, to my further extend, I wanna share some frightening game with you if you are interested, which is Fatal Frame... I played this game before, never succeed in finishing the whole damn game, cause I have to admit that, it was horrifying, I mean, freaking frightening, the controller/joystick actually vibrates uncontrollably when there is ghost nearby, and on top of that, you will have to have enough courage to put on the camera to frame the spirit...

Despite of me not having the skills in explaining the game, I have some really coll trailers about the game, why don't you guys check it out?

Screen from the magic camera when U have to snap the spirit into it.



Everywhere is dark and creepy like hell

Now you see who's behind you *grin*

This is the cool camera I am talking about *wink*

Here is on of the trailer~ Enjoy~~
Fatal Frame 1

10 things I hate about males

I watched the movie 10 things I hate about you, eventually, I came out with a post about 10 things I hate about guys, so here it goes :P

1. Hate guys who speaks loudly as if they swallow some kind of speaker in them >.<
2. Hate guys who do not have commitment in whatever they do
3. Hate guys who doesn't treat a lady as a lady
4. Hate guys who is always an attention seeker
5. Hate guys who always talk big and do nothing
6. Hate guys who talk without thinking of others
7. Hate guys who think money can buy just every damn thing
8. Hate guys who pick on looks
9. Hate guys who encourage abortion
10. Hate guys who count every cent and penny
( I have a case about this guy who demands everyone to pay him back 10cents,wtf?)


Lol found this while searching images through Google

Encounter any guys that hit one or more of the list up there? Share with me will you? Muax! =D

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Ok I was tagged..

Tagged by Guineaaaaaa...

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night.
Jason Lim (He was imitating Ben)

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Eating Bah Kut Teh.. Hohoho

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Sitting in front of the computer and complaining about mass comm research

4. What happened to you in 2006?
Erm.. How am I supposed to remember?! Well I was still attached to the same guy, and my family was real fine

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
What the fu*k lah wei!!

6. How many beverages did you have today?
Woo plenty, I don't being call a camel for nothing...

7. What colour is your hairbrush?
Skin colour, I used my fingers >.<

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
My Digi prepaid card..

9. Where were you last night?
At college interviewed by LAN and home.

10. What colour is your front door?
Dark brown

11. Where do you keep your change?
Purse

12. What's the weather like today?
Was stuck in the whole campus without feeling the sunlight from 9-5pm

13. What's the best ice-cream flavour?
Rum Raisin

14. What excites you?
Breath taking sceneries, I might cry for those sceneries.

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
I wish I could even do it now, see how desperate am I?

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Blardy of course not yet!!!! Not so soon either!

17. Do you talk a lot?
Well I guess so, do I?

18. Do you watch the O.C?
Apa ni?!

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Plenty and it's confusing.

20. Do you make your own words?
Well well yeah :D

21. Are you a jealous person?
Hmm don't really get jealous, more to envy :D

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'
Alisha

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'
Kelvin

24. Who's the first person on your received call list?
Endang ---> 9am.. Hahaha!!

25. What does the last text message you received say?
" Ok ok, wantanpoh is like that d. Forever wantan!!"

26. Do you chew on the straw?
Well yea but stopped.

27. Do you have curly hair?
Which part of the hair you are talking? *grin

28. What's the next place you're going to?
Going to the hall and disturb Ben

29. Who's the rudest person in your life?
Those uncivilized passerby s on streets

30. What was the last thing you ate?
cin cau

31. Will you get married in the future?
Well I wish for that :)

32. What was the best movie you've seen in past 2 weeks?
The Guardian and The exoticism on Emily Rose (HBO)

33. Is there anyone I like right now?
My besties!

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Sunday

35. Are you currently depressed?
Indeed, that stupid not so workable topic.

36. Did you cry today?
nope

37. Why did you answer and post this?
Because I was tagged by someone who looks like a guinea pig

38. Tag 5 people who would do this.
Shiro,Mady,Ying Han,Maggie and Cherrion

Di dum Di

Well well well... Felt like screaming at the particular lecturer, just felt like screaming at her asking " What the hell do you want lah?!"

U blardy chicken!!! Die!!! *Wish I could do that to her...

Ok stop the violent part, life still goes on, but was about to end when I was like sitting in a freaking freezer for like 2 hours?!!!! Was sleepy, the lecture was about history, and the air conditioner was blowing blardy air towards my direction, really make me got the urge to just set up a fire in the middle and warm everybody up, duh!

Tuesday is always tiring... Have to stay focus from 9.30am - 5.30pm with only half an hour break, oi pengsan lah! Talking about 9.30am.. Someone actually ring me up this morning at 9am ---> "Ei Jest, where is the class? Why nobody there one?" Ahahahaha you know who you are, and I know you will definitely read my blog and start cursing me like " That Jest ar!!!!"... Ok last week I had the same situation, reached college at 8.45am, rush to class and ding* --> Where is everybody? Starting to get panic and ring up some fairy for guidance, well I waited for 45 minutes for class to start, sitting in the stupid tiny room, practicing one man show...

Just one thing, you girls are the one who motivates me to college I guess, hehe.. SO I actually dig out an old picture from my collection, well someone is missing there thou, sweet memory...

The Green With the White
Special thanks to ji mui sueshen for that post on your blog, it's touching, I love you muax!!!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

2008...

Well I know it's slightly late to start off the title with 2008, since it's already 12 days passed 2007...

First of all, again happy new year to all my friends, and girls, if you are calculating and complaining about how old you are getting, please don't!( I have to admit I am one of them who is complaining) Well try thinking that, instead of getting older every year passed, let's put it this way ----> Girls, we are a year wiser ... Sounds better? Well that's the truth, we do become mature when every year passed, or even everyday,every hour, every minute, every second..

Time flies, don't they? When I was young, or even smaller, I used to hate schools, hate getting up early in the morning catching school buses, hate wearing uniform,just you name it, I might put it in the hate list, and most of all, I hate when time crawls...

When I used to sit in the classroom, focusing on the teacher's lecture, I will always peep to my watch and wish time will speed up at least 10 times of it's speed, so instead of tickling per second, I wish it was tickling 10 seconds at once, just can't wait to grow up and do many things that adults do, well cut off the "blue" scene please, hahaha...

Eventually, I've grown up, reaching 20's, the reverse mood came, instead of 10 times faster, I wished it was 10 times slowly, or if time never moves, it would be the greatest, and now, I missed those uniform days, those schools, and even love recalling how I used to catch buses.. My wish was granted -----> Time flies....

We are almost graduating, not even a year time, just few months... I seriously telling you that, I'll missed this college life no matter how crappy it get sometimes, I missed wandering in just anywhere while waiting for classes, and most of all, I will really missed you guys for being there for a total of 3 years,can I just hug you girls when I see u all next week? Hahaha...

Remember, we are not getting older but wiser, both are facts, depends on which side you will perceive it better, the coin is always 2 sided,flip to the other side, you will definitely see something different... Love you girls, and good luck for the whole of 2008!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Astro Kirana

Phew, I was actually half vanished from this blogging stuff ever since I started my internship, but then, it's going to end very soon, only a couple more days, and I will be seeing my girls again, and I bet, we are gonna share so so much hahaha! Can't wait...

Alright I attend a short film award 2007 at Sunway Convention Hall, was organized by Astro Kirana, was a good experience thou...

So there, among 100 short films, 10 was nominated, and guessed what, "The Promise" was nominated as one of the Top 10, and here I would like to take this opportunity to thank those who voted for the film, that we won the Audience Award category, hahaha... Well, special thanks to Phei Ni,Mady,Cades,Carmen,Alisha and many many more lol!

So that night, sat with Patrick and wife Jennifer on a same table, while Sia and Sook Kee was separated from us, how sad... :(
There were guest like Carmen Soo, 3R girls, Ammir Mohammed who directed Durian,The Last Communist and his latest film will be Susuk, Osman Ali and great backbones from Puteri Gunung Ledang, and again, many many more...

The ambiance was kinda ok for a first timer cause this is the 1st time Kirana hosting such ceremony which I think it's marvelous to get new fresh blood into the film industry to increase the fame of Malaysia cinema talent.
The Top 3 winners, which I predicted the exact 3 films will be having the awards, 1st runner up and the grand prize winner's films was really stunning and the impact was really good, from here, we noticed that, in Malaysia, there are many talented freshies are waiting to express their great passion in the film industry.

If any of you are interested to know why are they the winners, you will be greatly impressed by their performance and teamwork, try log on to Astro website and go for the short films award, you will see a listed nominated films... 1st runner up was" Shou Ji" and grand prize winner was "Beautifool Life"... Seriously, I really think that these 2 films deserved the award, you will understand what am I trying to say when you watched them, and Dang, you favourite actress was nominated as the best performance award, which I'm glad she got it too ^^

Do watch Astro Kirana on every Monday 11pm, there will be short films shown on screen as well, and by March, top 10 nominated films will be screened as well hehe...
Here I would really wanna thanked Sia for giving such opportunity and experience ^^...

Monday, December 10, 2007

Please Don't...

Please don't let me dislike talking to you
Please don't let me begin ignoring you
Please don't let me look down on you by how you behave
Please don't let me loose my respect towards you
Please don't let me have the feeling of frustration when I see you
Please don't let me get irritated when you ask really dumb questions
Please don't let me have so many chances to raise my voice against you
Please don't let me think that you are the black sheep among others
Please don't let me repeat things which had been repeated a thousand times
Please don't let me stop saying hi to you
Please don't let me think that talking to you is such suffering and wasting time

Just you know who you are... Please don't... I'm getting real sick...

Thursday, November 08, 2007

自然减肥方法

姐妹们
我最近发现了乐一格减肥方法 但你们不要学哦 不健康。。。

原来人失恋 是很自然地没有胃口 就算再美的美食 你都不会吃。。。
而且。。。
很容易发呆
很容易胡思乱想
很容易想睡觉 因为睡觉才不会觉得痛苦
很容易无精打采
很容易想大声地喊

不止这样。。。
很难开心地笑
很难有心机做事
最终的是。。。
真的很难控制不哭
因为。。。
我从第一句打到现在,
竟然说服不到自己不要哭。。。

自然而然, 我应该也会减轻几磅。。。
有人告诉我, 到底眼泪会让我瘦吗?
因为我担心我会便排骨,

泪水,你可以不要流了吗?

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Happy Deepavali?

Wishing al my Indian fellas who is celebrating this festive, do have a really wonderful one ok?! HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

Tomorrow, a holiday, woohoo! But unfortunately it's only 1 day, so I was wondering, why do Indians get to celebrate their festive for only one day?! Malays have their long holidays for Hari Raya , and counting in other Raya Haji plus minus, Chinese do have their Chinese New Year and also other small small festives, but Indians, I only heard of Deepavali and Thaipusam, so total sum up it's only 2 days.. 2 days?!

Talking about festive, besides Deepavali, X'mas is on his way here, after that, looking forward to Chinese New Year! Yay!! So there is a benefit living in a multi racial country, where you can have all sort of holiday even the festive has nothing to do with you, untungnya~ Well let me take one day, I don't know when, I will count how many holidays we have in a year,that would be interesting eh?

Looking forward for x'mas, just hope there is no events up on that day, pray*
Oh one more thing, Christians do celebrate their own race festives do they, like Indian Christians celebrates Deepavali? Chinese Christians celebrates Chinese New Year? Confused...

Anyhow, good day to all and happy holiday, although it's only for 1 day, hahaha...

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Another one...

Another raping case...
9 year old Indian girl, raped and thrown out of the balcony...
She was left 2 hours without the parents...

Now, people say don't go out and stay at home,yu will be safe... But for now,staying at home isn't safe,so where do we go now? dig a hole and hide?

I used to walk with my 2 besties to school in the early morning, well nothing ever happens, except for once when I have to walk alone, I met this moron who actually half masturbating infront of me, wtf... That's where I carry my pepper spray...

So now, people are getting more violent, more beasty, more scary... Are we back to the uncivilize era, or we are worse than that?

Well you tell me...

P.S= girls, please be exra caution about our surrounding ok? ^^

Thursday, November 01, 2007

New Start

Stepped my foot at Star Event Company today, for the first time, 2 months internship,grr...
Well fist impression, superiors are nice, colleagues are nice, and everything nice, maybe it's the first day, everything seems fine...
I am looking forward to invloved myself into just anything that the company is dealing with, I wanna be as busy as I can, coz at this moment, I am just sitting down here, surfing the net and doing nothing...
Between, have anyone of you registered to ahmoi.com? Well the design is cute, I guess girls will love it so much, so if you are interested, go and do a slight survey,it won't take you long...

www.ahmoi.com

If anyone of you have registeredm add me at Jester85 ok?
Hope everyone is doing great in their internship ok? Muahhh!!


The cutie female version


The male version

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Alone...


I was watching a lot of those "virus transmitting" movies where once you are infected, you are a blood sucking creature, which is like 28 days later, 28 weeks later and resident evil... I don't know why I was so into these kind of movies, well maybe it's my own way of releasing stress, stress of boredom, hahaha...

While watching movies, I tend to put myself into the character, and feel if I were him/her, what would I do... This time, I put myself in this character in the movie of 28 days later...

If anyone of you watched this movie, I guess you all are familiar where this actor woke up in the hospital where not even a single person was in that hospital, slowly he moves to the main street of London, no cars, no people and empty shops... As if the whole London left him all alone there...

So there my auto mode switch on, putting myself in this character, where I woke up with no one in the house, slowly to the garden , and then the main street of KL... OMG how creepy is it? No one talking to you, no cars driving around honking, no shops open for selling, damn it's a dead city, it's seriously scary and horrible even if it is in the broad daylight, yuke! Don't feel good at all...

Learn t something, it's so good to hear people talking and laughing, it's so good to see traffic jams when you know there are hundreds of people are with you, it's just good to be crowded!!!

This is what we call-----> The reverse psychology

Hahaha good day everyone, and good luck in the internship!!

Monday, October 22, 2007

It's raining...

3.00am sharp, a really early Monday morning...
Can't sleep yet, I guessed my sleeping time is all upside down, have to better tune it back to normal before I start my internship...
Sitting in front of the computer,listening to sentimental songs, how can these situation not trigger my thoughts, so that's why I am blogging here...
Thinking deeply, about what have I achieve so far in my 22 years of life, second thought, I achieve nothing yet... Seeing and hearing stories and experiences from friends telling me that how much the have achieve, I felt so behind, I can;t even chase their shadow...
I am one career minded women which he sometimes wish that I am one who is not so adventurous... Well, since young, I think I am more tomboyish than any other girl,I love learning guy's thing;cars,sci-fi related stuff,being mechanical in my house... Believe me or not, I fixed my electrical household items that my dad thinks I am no difference from my brother lol...
Thinking how much will I achieve in the future, I don't even know what do I wanna achieve, I am still lost...
Anyone of you found your aim in the future yet? Share with me!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Just for laughter...

Ok I got this joke from an email,was nice, read it ok? Hehehehe...

A woman stopped by unannounced at her recently married son's house.
She rang the doorbell and walked in.
She was shocked to see her daughter-in-law lying on the couch, totally naked.
Soft music was playing, and the aroma of perfume filled the room.

"What are you doing?" she asked.

"I'm waiting for my husband to come home from work," the daughter-in-law answered.

"But you're naked!" the mother-in-law exclaimed.

"This is my love dress," the daughter-in-law explained.

"Love dress? But you're naked!"

"My husband loves me to wear this dress," she explained.

"It excites him to no end.

Every time he sees me in this dress, he instantly becomes romantic and ravages me for hours on end.
He can't get enough of me."

The mother-in-law left.

When she got home, she undressed, showered, put on her best perfume, dimmed the lights, put on a romantic CD, and laid on the couch waiting for her husband to arrive.
Finally, her husband came home.
He walked in and saw her lying there so provocatively.
"What are you doing?" he asked.

"This is my love dress," she whispered, sensually.

"Needs ironing," he said. "What's for dinner?

"

Sunday, October 14, 2007

It farted...

Blardy...
Ok seriously I never knew animals do fart like a skunk,until that perfect afternoon...
I was laying down on the couch watching tv, as usual the si manja Ben will jump onto the couch and land on me,pose his sleeping pose, usually it would be his asshole, I mean his butt facing me, maybe he wanted some tv shows too, no idea about it...
Ok there it goes, it's like a silent killer,it comes so quietly but it leaves a deadly smell,omg! Right into my nose! At first I felt some warm air, and the smell follows.............
Confirmed it was him who did the farting, his stupid guilty look saying " I am sorry I farted right into your nose..." Those kind of look...
So, from that day onwards, When he land on me with his butt facing me, I have the phobia and I will turn him to the other side where his guilty face facing me...
Wonder why Bluey (my 7 year old bunny) nv farted, maybe he did, just not that stinko?

Monday, October 08, 2007

Song

There are some songs, when you hear them, it reminds you of that situation, it brings back the particular memory, happy, sweet, sad, heartbroken... I tend to tell myself that, I can forget things which I don't want them to come back to my memory box, but I was wrong, when you listen to a certain song, it actually brought back the exact feeling of things... I was wrong that, things cannot be forgotten, it was just hiding somewhere where you can't find them, until something happens, it comes back... This is a song from someone which I thought I can forget,unfortunately, I was wrong, still exist in my memory, the feeling of that time, just wanna ask, how are you doing now, it's been a long long time since we last sat down and talk, I know you were hiding from me before, and I did the same, till the day you called me back,things might not be the same anymore, but truly, you are still someone that I care... A friend... Remember this song?

梁静茹 可惜不是你

这一刻 突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天 今天同时在放映
我这句语气 原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点 骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段 我们曾心贴著心
(我想我更有权力关心你)
可能你 已走进别人风景
多希望 也有 星光的投影

努力为你改变
却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

Friday, October 05, 2007

Breast Cancer

To all the girls,

Walked by pass a champagne the other day in college, it's all about breast cancer and how to fight it, I guess we should all be aware of it and it's danger, you won't wanna have half your breast cut off when you are in your 30s right? So I browse through the net and found some info for how do you know you are actually affected by this nightmare...

Changes that could be due to a breast cancer are
* A lump or thickening in an area of the breast
* A change in the size or shape of a breast
* Dimpling of the skin
* A change in the shape of your nipple, particularly if it turns in, sinks into the breast or becomes irregular in shape
* A blood-stained discharge from the nipple
* A rash on a nipple or surrounding area
* A swelling or lump in your armpit

Well a change in the size or shape of the breast, mm... I guess it's pretty normal to us girls, but if you are also facing the other symptoms, please please go to the doctor and do a check up ok? I will arrange a check up as well, just to put my mind in rest, anyone interested lol?

P.S= This is not only for girls, guys can get breast cancer in any chance too ok? But I guess it wont be the change in size or shape, if yes, u definitely have to consult a doctor, there is definitely something wrong hahahah!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Girls and Guys!



Hey! Mmm lately im trying hard to find nice movies, I had some already, but I am scratching my head to get more nice movies, categories would be romance and humour hahaha, so please please drop me a comment about which movie is nice to get? any language will do, but within the range of English, Mandarin or even Cantonese, I don't mind Korean movies too hahaha! Pls don't comment me on Bollywood movies, you girls know why...
Anyhow, presentation for seminar is superd near, it's just a blink of an eye, gosh gotta prepare it already, before that, good luck girls on the presentation and million thanks to Drew for the information you gave me ^^

Thursday, September 20, 2007

What is on their mind?!


Nurin, an 8 year old girl was found missing on 20th August, being raped and murdered brutally...

Now what is wrong with all these people now, what's going on in their stupid minds?!! Are these human beings or beast?! Don't they have bloody feelings for the victims? Don't they have nightmares every night after they committed such act? I believe even animals kill for a reason, meat eater kill for the sake of hunger... How many people around us are slowly evolving into some kind of beast?!

The old people always say," What is happening to the world now? Every page of the newspapers reporting tragedies instead of news that can lightened up a day..." So here, when is the last time you read the headlines and actually smiled? Some said all these tragedies were happening all the time, maybe in the good old days, news just did not cover so much of these stories like now... I don't think so...

Tsunami, earth quakes, mother nature disasters are wiping out numbers of live, is this a symptom of clearance?

Monday, September 17, 2007

Reality or Dreams?

Since young, for me, were asked to fill in the ambition blanks, I remembered filling in teacher, doctor and singer...
Slowly moving into the teenage world, the above ambitions seems to be getting far away from me, so as for my interest, I told myself I would stick to the doctor...
After form 5, the doctor's ambition vanished after all the years, and it confused me that was my ambition a reality or just a dream which you could only dream on?
At the age of early 20s, surprisingly a lot of occupation seems to be so unreachable where you could only dream on things, what happen to those ambitions which I filled in when I was just a kid? Kids often think that everything is possible, some might even filled in the blanks like, "I want to be a superhero..." which us, adults would laugh at them and tell them is impossible. While for adults, everything seems to be impossible, if you tell someone that," Hey I want to be a spaceman walking on the surface of the moon...", definitely you would have exchange those words with stares from your friends or even family, "What the hell? Spaceman? Why not you stop dreaming and get your feet back into reality!"
So, there you go, being a spaceman, a billionaire, a president of a country is all just illusion and dreams? So Bill Gates, George Bush, Valentina Tereshkova, the first woman in space were all not humans? Coz if we want to be them ,we can only dream about it and not having it stated down in the list.

There is these few words and phrases which push me from moving forward to the so call impossibles: There is a Will, There is a Way. If others can do it, why not you?

Be brave to chase your dreams and make it come true,there is a possibility. ^^

Thursday, September 13, 2007

13.9.2007

Mom went medical check up yesterday, result was that she has high blood pressure which she will have to take medicine to control it, mom let's go for exercise ok?

Ok tomorrow will be the day for it, hate it so much that I have to revise every damn thing again, but I guess I really deserved this.. So here I would like to wish all my fellow mates who's going for the second battle, GOOD LUCK!!

Read one old copy of reader digest, but still the information is never old :)
I would really like to share this with you all.

Preparing my son for his first day of kindergarden, we were reviewing numbers and counting. Suddenly he asked," What is the biggest number in the world?"
As briefly as possible, I tried to explain to him the concept of infinity, I thought I had done pretty well, but then he said," Dad, then what number comes just before infinity?"
-Shawn Foster,December 2001

Something to ponder over... ^^

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Love Story

Watched a Korean drama, finished 20+ chapters in 2 days, coz it is really addictive... I usually do not fancy all this drama as I am afraid to cry because of all this soap opera, but well, someone introduced me the drama, and I watch...
Was touching, it really touches ur heart that made ur tears drop...
Watching this drama made me think alot, that's why he is always afraid that I watch sad love stories, because after every love stories I watched, I will tend to ask alot of questions which he cannot answer, like " How if I have few days left in this world, what would you do?" He will always refused to answer and say " Pls do not say all this things? We are now healthy and nothing will happen?"
Well baby, life is where people get together, but at the end, it is always the split... I remembered when there were only few days ahead before my PMR arrived, my grandfather passed away,he was buried next to my grandmother's tombstone, when I saw my grandmother's tombstone, it was already grown with alga... Knew how long my grandfather waited to be re-unite with my his wife? It was a total of 15 years...
Dear, whenever I think of this, I don't know why I just got a painful feeling that makes me wanna cry and do nothing...
I will always miss you, no matter when or where...

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

人…


去马六甲的那一段路…
经过了孝恩,也都经过Nilai坟场…
顿时想起了一位朋友,在他十八岁的那一年因为肺癌而去世…
在车上的我,问了一个问题…

“人死了…那灵魂会去哪里?还会感觉到痛吗?”

“也许人死后,要去的地方,才是真正属于人的世界,如果不是的话,为什么在凡间会有那么多的悲伤下场…”

听了他那一番话,有点惊讶,这些答案竟然会从他口中说出…
想告诉你说,就算这世界是多么的悲惨,遇到你是我这生中最幸福的时候…
知道我每次说这番话,眼眶都会湿湿地,但还是忍不住要告诉你,
“希望头上长满了白发的我们,依然还会拖着彼此的手,欣赏天空的美…

Saturday, August 04, 2007

The pet NANNY!


Ok just that this is the punishment for biting off the pink roses from the hair tie band, remember and learn it from the lesson ok you lil boy! Hahahaha!